Its almost been a year since the break up and you still have all of my heart maybe I'm weak for feeling like this maybe I'm weak for still loving you with all I have maybe I just need to let go in fact I've tried I've tried for so long it hurts now I look back on what we were long before I let us get to how we are and I regret everything I let it all go all because they told me to all cause I thought you'd be happier and better off I hope you are happier and I hope you are better off cause if you are this heartbreak is worth it I wake up every day knowing you aren't there and knowing you'll never be there again I still love you and I always will I'll never be able to move on completely hell I'm in a relationship and I still can't seem to love that person with all of me all because you still have a huge chunk of my heart and soul I hide my feelings from him there are things I don't want him seeing things I want no one to see a part of me where I still live in a world where I'm still in your arms and you're still holding me tight I never wanted to feel like this I never wanted to lose you but its my fault I did I let you go then I started dating again and now I see its too late to pick up the broken pieces I thought I could get over it that I could move on but I can't I still love you happy late birthday and merry Christmas please never forget our memories I never will I'll never forget the memories I'll never forget the pain of losing my best friend my other half and my soul mate I'll never forget the plans the names of our kids that we were gonna have where we were gonna live I'll remember it long after I marry I'll probably never marry cause I can't stay with anyone long enough I can't make it work when you are the only thing on my mind and maybe I'm crazy and stupid for being in love with a guy who hates me who wants nothing to do with me but I can't change how I feel I can only accept the fact that I ain't getting you back and I will always search for you in other people and I will always hide behind a fake smile and fake laugh I will never be the same I will never be whole again but I promise you this I will forever love you and always miss you you're still my king my baby my world and I'm sorry for being such a fuck up rawr I don't say rawr to anyone only you I miss us I'll stop now bye 😢
