My Journey

Not Feeling Down Anymore

3/11/2017
Surprisingly they added that part of the video where Ethan comforted me. I didn't think they would. I just did it cause I just wanted to do it, Kind of as a joke. And now everyone is freaking out. Now the viewed that dont like me have really come to the surface. I was a bit hesitant to call Ethan, and to be honest I was feeling a little bit panicky. It's like being back in Spain again. I decided to go to my bedroom and lay down; just relax, turn off my phone. Just disconnect from everything.
On top of that I was the girl in the back of David's vlog. Everyone coming at me all at once. Too much for my 17 year old body and brain. Why does this have to happen to me? I thought to myself. I guess I should've known something like this would happen eventually.
I was about to fall asleep but I heard my door being knocked. I stood up and cleaned up the tears I didn't know were forming in my eyes. When I got the door I took a look through the peephole and when I saw who was at the other side of the door I didn't doubt opening the door.
"Thank God you are here." I said as I hugged both, Ethan and Grayson.
"We saw what was happening and I dragged Grayson in the car."  Ethan said as the both gave me a comforting hug.
"You guys are seriously the best." I said as my voice cracked from almost crying.
"Don't cry!" Grayson said as the both pulled away and Ethan hugged me from behind. Grayson closed the door behind us si my neighbours couldn't see what's going on.
"I just can't." I said as I put my hands over my eyes and Ethan turned me around and hurried my head on his chest.
"Babe, don't worry. It's all gonna be alright." He said before kissing my forehead and rubbed my back.
"You know what? We are gonna watch some Christmas movies. Ethan and I-" Grayson said, but Ethan looked at Grayson to hint at him that he was gonna stay here with me. "I will go and grab some pancakes and ice cream. Does that sound good?"
"Yeah." I said as turned me head to the side a bit to look at Grayson.
"Alright. I'll do my best." He said and he turned away to go and grab everything he just said.
"Babe, don't even worry about it. I love you. Don't worry about our crazy fans. If they love us, they should love you too." He said as soon as Grayson left.
"I love you too." I said looking up at him before he kissed me softly on the lips.
"Now, should we see what movies we can watch?"
"Yeah" I said as we went to the couch and turned Netflix on the TV. "I've saved so many to watch. I don't even know which one to watch first."
"Oh God...."
"Hey! You tweeted you are getting too excited for Christmas already." I said as I went to my *open concept* kitchen to grab a piece of tissue to wipe my tears and my boogers away.
"Yeah, and it's your fault." Ethan said.
"Why me?!?!" I said as I sat back down on the couch.
"You are the ones that's already hung the rose gold reindeer fairy lights on her bedroom."
"They've always been out, it's just that they've been stored this whole time." I said as I grabbed the remote control and went through all the Christmas movies
"Yeah, sure." He said. I was trying not to look at him, because I knew if I did he'd know I'm still feeling down.
"Babe, are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah, don't worry about me. Seriously, it's just..... A today thing. I swear."
"No it's not. I know you."
"You're here now, seriously. You are the only thing that could make me happy at times like this." I said to him, looking straight in his eyes. It wasn't easy, he makes me very nervous.
"Okay, but don't think I'm a bad boyfriend now. I've asked and you still said you're fine."
"How could I say that? I've told you a million times, you're the best boyfriend any girl could ask for."
"I try my best."

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"Alright, I know we're here to cheer you up, but we've watched 3 Christmas movies straight. Can we get something to eat." Grayson said standing up from the sofa.
"Have we had all the pancakes and the ice cream?" I asked him.
"Yeah, and I will probably need to go to the bathroom soon..." He replied.
"As much as you sharted when you tried to move the dresser?"
"Wow, that's was a good one." Ethan said holding up his hand for a high five.
"Yeah, probably even worse." He said.
"Okay, I could have gone with out that piece of information. Thanks Gray." Ethan said.
"Where can we got and eat?" I asked as I got up.
"You don't really have why restaurants nearby." Grayson said.
"I know, what can I do about it? This apartment was the cheapest I could find that ticked off all that I wanted." I said in my deffense.
"You do have a McDonalds right outside. You just have to walk a little bit."
"That's what I said. It ticked off everything I wanted." I said and they both laughed.
"What? I have my girl cravings every once in a while. Back home I did not have any restaurant, not even McDonalds. And that's sad."
"Real nightmare right there." Ethan said joking.
"Yeah." I said completely serious.
"So, should we go to McDonalds then?" Grayson asked again.
"I guess."
"Well, let's go!" Ethan said as they both grabbed a hand each and dragged me out of my apartment.
"Hey! I got my slippers on! I can't go out like this!" I said as we went down a few stairs.
"Why not?" Ethan said and I looks down at my slipper, my pink fuzzy ladybug slippers. They both looked at them and let go of my hands. Luckily Grayson grabbed the key that was on a table I have next to my door.
I put on my colourful adidas superstar, which I had buyed a couple moths ago but haven't worn yet. I feel like it's quite relatable for most girls, right? We got out tmof the apartment and I was still kind of sad. Ethan and Grayson saw me and tried cheering me up. They both started to do 'parkour', aka doing crappy cartwheels and doing mini jumps on every edge they found on the way. To be fair they were pretty funny and they did manage to crack a few little smiles on the way, which was what I needed.
"Come on Alba! Join us on our parkour!" Ethan said as he jumped in front of me.
"What should I do?" I said, trying to get my energy up a little.
"That edge, jump it!" Ethan said, running to a little edge and demonstrating what I should do.
"Okay, I'm going in!" I said as I stopped to catch a run.
"That's what he said!" Ethan said after finishing his move.
"You're so gross." I said as I mentally counted down to three. Once I did I started laughing imagined how ridiculous I must have looked.
"We did it! We made her laugh!" They both said as the started running and jumping.
"Calm down!" I said, pretty much cry laughing, looking at them.
"I'm not gonna." Ethan said beofre stealing a kiss from me.
"E!" I said looking at him when he ran back Grayson to be goofs. They're both my goofs.
"What? I don't give a fuck. If it slips it slips. I love you and I want the whole world to know." He said as he turned around to look at me. I ran up to him and kissed him again, forgetting Grayson a little bit. But it's fine, he's used to it by now.... I think.
"Okay, tone it down. There's the McDonalds." Grayson said.
"Yeah, we can go there already. I think we've goofed around enough." I said as Ethan and I held hands, for the first time in public, looking at him the whole time.
We were all sitting down, me next to Ethan and Grayson in front of us, with our meals already on the table. We were eating when we saw a group of about 5 girls who wouldn't stop staring at us. They must have been followers, but they're faces looked very familiar. I think I might have seen them right outside my apartment lot, and after that where Ethan made me jump. They wouldn't stop staring at us, filming us with their phones it seemed. They all started to be a little intimidating after a while. I started to act all weird as I had never experienced anything like this before. Sure, I've had girls follow me for the shortest time to ask me for a photo, but not watching me eat.
"What's wrong?" Grayson said, probably because of this whole situation.
"Those girls, they're getting a little bit intimidating. They've been following us for a while."
"Yeah, I've noticed them too." Ethan said taking the slightest glimpse at them. "I've only seen her where you parkoured."
"I saw then back at my apartment lot, when we got out." I said, taking a not her bite of my nugget.
"That's kind of creepy... Why would they do that?" Ethan asked confused.
"I don't know. They maybe want a photo?" I said, trying to find a logical explanation.
"They would have come and asked for one, right? Our viewers aren't really the type to follow us around like creeps, they are all pretty straight forward." Grayson said, debunking my theory.
"True, mine would've come to ask for a photo a long AF time ago. I don't know."
"They seem like they're gonna give up." Ethan said as they all seemed to be going away.
"Yeah, I feel bad. What if they wanted a picture?" I said before taking another bite. "Oh well. They should've asked."
"Maybe they're fans of the person whose name can't be named." Grayson said misteriously.
"Voldemort?" I said.
"No! J.D." Grayson said as the both laughed.
"Oh! Maybe. Why would they follow us, though?" I said.
"I don't know, and I don't care either." Ethan said before taking a sip of his coke.
"Same to be fair." I said before eating my last chip. "I'm full. I can have a siesta now in peace."
"You Spanish weirdo. It's such a fun word to say though. Siesta." Ethan said.
"Why?" I said giggling.
"I don't know. I guess I do like my 'S's and 'T's." Ethan said as he also ate his last chip.
"You are weird." Grayson said.
"Said the one who like anchovies...." Ethan said back.
"I like them too." I said.
"I..... Did not know that. This is why I have trust issues." He said.
"You don't even trust me." Grayson said.
"I don't, but you don't trust me either and we've made it pretty clear in all of our videos." Ethan said.
"Well, I think we should go. I'm really craving a good long siesta. I need my beauty sleep."
"I'm not gonna add anything to that one sentence. Imma keep my mouth shut." Ethan said. I imagine he was gonna say something among the lines of 'you don't need it' or something like that, but he knows me well, well enough to know that that makes me cringe. Plus, he has already shouted to the world he loves me, which I kind of cant get my head around, cause just look at him. His gorgeous.
"Alright, we can go. We can watch some other movies, that aren't Christmas themed maybe?" Grayson let that slip, as if it wasn't with him.
"Fine, I'll do that when you leave. To fall asleep maybe. I don't know." I said as we all got up and made our way to my apartment, where I fell asleep pretty much as soon as they put the first movie and curled myself next to Ethan with a blanket. COZY TIMES.