Locket~why don't we

Words i didnt say

His lips came In and touched mine. It was to quick and to soon. I didn't know this kid that well it made me free out. The minute his touched mine I pushed him back.

"What's wrong Nicole?" He asked. "Nothing I just I can't do this" I started to walk away. "What?" He asked. "I barley know you". "Im sorry Nicole wait". "No just give me some space".  I started to walk out and I looked back. Jonah stood there with his hands on his head. He paced around nervously. I felt bad but I couldn't do it at the time.

I got to my car and sat there for a minute. Wondering what would happen if I let him kiss me. What would I do?

I drove back home and went straight to my room. I mean I had feelings for Jonah but it was to early. Also I had never had a boyfriend. Was he going to be the first?

I laid back in my bed and at the time it was only 11:00 in the morning. I went on my laptop and went to YouTube. I watched some of why dont We's music videos. I couldn't help but have my eyes drawn to Jonah. Maybe I felt guilt for leaving so quick. Maybe I really liked Jonah. Maybe I didn't know wish I was doing. Maybe I panicked.

I closed my computer and went to bed. I needed a nap. I had so much on my mind. All of it linked to Jonah.

I woke up around 3:00 so I slept for a long time. I looked like a mess but I didn't care. I didn't feel good and I wanted to just lay down. I checked my phone and I got a text from Jonah. I opened my phone and slowly checked it. I didn't want him to be mad at me. Without him i was upset.

Jonah- hey I'm sorry about today I didn't mean to upset you. Can I make it up to you?

I thought about what I would say for a minute. What would I say. Tell him I have never dated anyone. I felt bad. I treated him unfair and was to quick to turn him down. Why don't I just tell him? Was it that hard talking to Jonah?

Nicole- no I'm sorry for leaving and of course you can make it up to me:)

Jonah- dinner tonight?

Nicole- of course

Jonah- pick u up at 6?

Nicole-yes sir

I got out of my bed and started to dance a little. I was excited and I was going to make it up to Jonah. He didn't deserve this from me. But my question was why me? I wasn't famous. I wasn't cool. I wasn't pretty. Why would he come to me?

I went through my closet until I could find something. I found a long sleeve turtle neck grey dress and some toms wedges. Not bad but not great.

I slipped on the dress and couldn't help but look in the mirror. I looked good. I never got dressed up and if I did it wasn't by choice. It was nice to have the freedom to dress up. I liked it.

I curled my hair in some tight curls. My hair was naturally curly but I just tried to define it. I brushed it out and prayed some hairspray and did makeup real quick. I barley wore makeup so I rushed through that.

Around 5:45 I was just hanging around downstairs waiting. I was super excited but also nervous. I felt bad. Really bad. Now I needed to make it up to him.

I heard the doorbell ring. I quickly got up and ran to the door.