Locket~why don't we

"If my heart grows cold"

Jonah-Nicole?
Jonah-please answer
Jonah-Nicole please

I didn't want to answer. I couldn't what would I say. And what did he even want in the first place. To tell me I had to talk to him. To tell me more about Cindy.

I sat on my bed in my room and stared at the wall. Why was he even here? I kept thinking. Why did he come here and bring that Cindy girl with him. Why did I even care anymore. I wanted to stop caring but a part of me wouldn't let that happen. It was like I had feelings for him. But I didn't.

Jonah-can we please talk this out?

I finally knew I had to answer. I had to say something. What would I say. He wouldn't stop till I answered so I just said what.

Nicole-what?

Jonah- can I just see you?

Nicole-why would I want to see you

Jonah-please we can just talk but as friends

Nicole- I guess where?

Jonah- the park?

Nicole-will Cindy be there

Jonah-no

Nicole- see you in 10 I guess

I put on a vest over my white long sleeve skirt and jeans. I put on some boots and went downstairs. I fixed my hair as I went down. I could just hear my grandma and my sister laughing. I mean it upset me that she favored her but I didn't really care.

"I'm going to meet with a friend I will be back in like a hour" I told my mom. "Just be back before 11" she responded. "Sure". She didn't seem to care.

I grabbed my keys and drove to the park by my house. I parked in front of the playground. I saw Jonah sitting on the swings. He looked kinda cute just sitting there. Why was I even saying that though. He was a jerk I guess.

I guess.

I walked with my hands in my pockets and he still didn't look up from his phone. Until I got close he quickly shoved his phone in his pocket and stood up awkwardly.

"Hey" he said. "Hi" I said and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. He started to walk around and it was very silent. I noticed he kept messing around with the pocket of his jacket.

After walking around silently he finally said something. "Nicole?". "Yea?" I turned my eyes towards him with hope. "Can we just make up please and be friends?" He asked. I sighed. I really wished he would have at least said I'm sorry, I still love you or something. "Yeah I guess" I mumbled. He turned towards me and grabbed my shoulders. "Thank you" he smiled. I smiled and looked down. Thought I smiled I faked it. Now when I was with Jonah it was like I was wearing a mask. I showed something I wasn't feeling when I just wished I could have ripped it off. It made me feel something. Like I was scared. And alone.

He hugged me and i hugged him back. I couldn't do a real hug at the moment. I just wanted to go back home and lay in bed. I wanted to sit by the fireplace alone and just feel warm and safe.

As Jonah and I started to walk around I started to feel kind of dizzy. I couldn't tell if I was over tired or crazy worried. I had so much built up in my I just wanted to let it all out and scream. As me and Jonah walked everything started to be blurry and everything he said got slowly and quieter. But it wasn't him.

The last thing I could remember before everything went black was hearing. "Oh my god Nicole". And I heard him on the phone with someone.