Keep Me Close (My Chemical Romance)

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Zaras POV

Mom didn't stop calling me. It was the day I had to go home, to get ready for the... You know.

The pain wasn't gone, but I stoped crying two days ago, no use for that, but I really don't want to go to the funeral. Gosh, it sounds so bad- funeral.

Gerard was in the room with me, I was packing my stuff and Gerard was sitting on his bed with a poker face and looking at me. The whole week he was trying to talk to me and helping me, but I don't need his help, wasn't the plan to hurt me?

"Did you really stop talking?" I said with no feeling in it

"Don't worry about me.."

"You know what is my problem? You never say the truth, if I ask you something, why is it that hard to answer?!"

"Yeah, I stoped talking with the guys. Do you want me to help you pack?" He said like it was not a big deal

"Why? "

"I just want to help you pac-"

"No, why did you stop talking? "

"Because, I need to. I don't deserve them"

This shocked me. Did he get into a fight because of me?

"That is bullshit! You all knew about it, why don't you talk to them?"

"Because They told me to do it... But it is my fault. Zara, I need you to stay, don't g-" he was about to finish when a knock on the door interupted him.

"It's your aunt, let me in" I heard a voice behind the door, it must be my que.

I opened the door and my aunt Sarah came in

"This is a nice place" she looked around and landed her eyes on Gerard "who is this young fellow? Are you two in lov-"

"Don't" i cut her off "sorry, I wanted to say that we have to go" my aunts face was stiff and Gerard looked like he saw a ghost. Can this get any awkward

"Your dad was such a nice man" it just did get more awkward as my aunt started talking

"Yeah, can you help me with the bags?" I got out of this conversation

"Sure" she smiled at me and Gerard was still not talking

My aount took one of my bags and walked out of the room. I took my last bags and started to walk out of the room as Gerard said

"Please come back" i turned around and wanted to cry "im really sorry, i know im selfish, but im not going to be ok if you leve"

"Bye" i sayed and rushed out of the room

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The car ride wasn't long, atleast it didn't feel like that. I fell asleep at the half and my mind was full of shit.

"He was cute" my aunt looked at me

"No, he isn't" i couldn't help my words

"I know that you had a fight, im not dumb, but he really looked like he regreted it, so just think it over" she kept her eyes on the house we were about to go in

"I don't know" i murmured

The house was not big, it was bright yellow with a few white windows.

"The funeral is tommorow and please, get some rest, find some chlotes and whatever you do, don't upset your mom" she said it as If I didn't know it

" sure"

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I got my black dress out of the bag. It was just a black dress, I think it's the only black dress I own.

I jumped on the bed and soon after that fell asleep.

'To forgive or to forget?' A soft voice said

'TO FORGET!' I yelled

'He really does care about you! Overthink your mistake!' The voice demanded

'You're wrong!'

'Lets see about that'

I sat up

"Just a dreem" i hufed and looked at the clock.

"Oh, god!" It was 9:46, I overslept!

I ran to the dress and put it on, brushed my hair and looked at the mirror.... How did this happen? How did I get here? My life sucks, I don't want to be here. Not anymore. This is how I disappear...

"Zara, come down! We have to go!" I didn't see my mom yesterday. I still don't want to!

I slowly walked down stairs and there she stood- she was wearing a black, long dress and she had tears on her cheeks.

"Hi, honey, lets go" she whispered and I felt even more sad.

"Yeah"

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The car stoped at a big church. It was a big, brown house made from bricks. And next to it... A cemetery, a tear fell to the ground but that was it. No other sound.

I kissed my dad on the forehead and I started crying. There was no stoping me now, i fell on my knees and screemed. I know that looked insane, but I wasn't sane at that moment.

Mom told me to go out for a minute and wait for me to calm down. I am now sitting next to the cemetery and waiting for them to come. But as it seemed I wasn't the only one crying.

I heard the sob behind me but I didn't want to turn around

"And why are you crying?" I was mad at the human behind me. Not like his dad just died!

"I hurt the only person that I trusted the most... And I truly liked her, i even may say i lov-"

"What are you doing here?!? " i yelled at the sobbing Gerard behind me.

'Im really sorry about the short chapter, but school! Thank you for reading and please vote <3

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