Keep Me Close (My Chemical Romance)

You Cut?

Gerards POV

This smell, I know it too well. It is the smell of hurting and regrets- The smell of a hospital. I opened my eyes and felt a small pain on my face then a flash of a hurt feeling in my chest. I remember it all, how I was about to die, how they found me, how she held me. But I don't remember geting here, did they take me?

"Oh my God! You're awake!" Lillys voice scared me, it was hard to move my head, because there was a cut on my neck, that now was bandaged, but I heard her satnd up and walk closer to me, but she wasn't the only one.

"Gerard, can you talk? " Lilly and Ray sat on my bed

"Yeah." My voice sounded raspy and weak

"Guys" It was a bit hard to say these words "I am sorry about all of this shit."

"Shut up, Gerard." Helena was here too

"You took my words!" I could hear Brendon smirk and I did too, I haven't smiled for a long time

"Can you stand up?" Ray asked

"I am ok, my neck just hurts a bit." I sat up and stood on my feet, at first I was a bit dizzy, but it went away.

"But, guys, I am sorry about this crap" I turned around and my heart stoped.

Lilly, Ray, Brendon and Helena were sitting on my bed, but there was a sad body sitting on a waiting chair. It was Mikey, his hair was tangled and all over his face. His eyes were red and I don't want to jump to conclusions, but I think it was from crying.

"Mikey, I am sorry" I slowly walked towards him, but he jumped up from his seat and walked past me, he stoped at the door.

"I think we talked about this! You said that you would keep me close! You told me that you would never do this to me again!" He wanted to yell, but the crying took all of his voice.

"Mikey" I walked as fast as I could to him and huged him "I am still here! I'm so sorry!" I whispered

"You told me that you wouldn't leave me. You told me that we will stay brothers forever." He sniffed

"Oh don't be like that. I'm here and it's ok." I said a bit louder and a door opened

"God. YOU'RE ALIVE, YOU LITTLE FUCKER!" Frank ran in the room and Mikey managed to pull out of the hug as Frank jumped on me.

"Ouch! My neck still hurts"

"Gee, what would I do without you?!" He acted like a little kid

"Sheesh! Were not married, at least not yet." I smiled and Frank ran to the bed and jumped on it.

"Ok, Lets let Gerard rest, and we should call Linda, she said that she will be here!" Mikey blushed as he mentioned Linda

"Yeah, lets go, besides, he has to talk to another REALLY important girl." Frank smiled and I got red as they all started to leave.

I sat on the bed and took my cigarette and my lighter out of my jacket. I opened the window and sat next to it. The view looked known and I know why. My grandmother died here, this is not far from home.

I lit my cigarette and sat there time was starting to fade away as the door opened and I looked to see who it was.

"Zara." I blushed and stood up. She hadn't changed her dress, it was the same, black and dirty dress, but she still looked hot. She didn't say a word, and I couldn't find the right ones.

"Im glad that you are here and, well thank you for taking me here."

"Frank took you here. I just helped a little" She whispered

"Zara, I remember yesterday. I, well, I don't know... Umm, was it a mistake? Urgh, sorry." I felt so worried and she didn't say a word.

She started walking closer to me like she didn't controle it. She looked like a walking dead, but I know why. She had been through a lot- her past, her dad and her brother... And me.

She was standing a half foot away from me and she looked up to me. So much pain, I felt so much pain coming from her eyes, and a tear, a small tear went down her cheek. I threw my cigarette out of the window.

I couldn't just watch her being in this state, I grabbed her by her shoulders and pulled her in a hug.

"I am sorry, Zara" I said in her hair

"Did you mean what you said? That you... Love me?"  It was hard to get those words out.

"I still do. But you don't have to, It's ok." She pulled out of the hug and made a fake smile.

I couldn't believe that she just said that! I have liked her from the time we started chatting, she didn't know that it was me, but I still feel the same way, only the feelings have gotten deeper.

"It is ok if you don't like me back" Her smile started to fade and I couldn't take it anymore. I smashed my lips against hers, I felt so warm inside. I felt her smile, but this time it wasn't a fake smile. She slid both of her hands to my head and grabbed my hair.

"Guys, something's wrong!" A desperate voice said, me and Zara looked at the door to see who it was. Frank was standing in the doorway and looking scared.

"What is it?" I asked

"It's Linda, she's missing!"