Keep Me Close (My Chemical Romance)

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*I know that these chapters are short, but I make them short and I update faster. If you want me to make longer chapters, just give me the word and Ill do it. Thank you for reading, bye.

XO Pollution*

Zaras POV

"Please, go." I was angry, but I it was the only thing that I could get out. 

"Can we talk?" tears were rushing down his face, he looks to be really emotional.

"I would love to talk to someone, but I think you're not the person. Gerard, I have been holding back SO MUCH SHIT and you were the one that made me let it out. I never asked you to chat with me, I never asked for you to talk to me! I lived my life with NO friends, or fake friends, why should that change now?" I ran out of breath with the last word, but truly, I think I needed to talk to someone. Im arguing with my head, I want to talk to someone, maybe I should try... No

"You didn't even let me explain. I know that you have the right to not forgive me, but I did it... Because you told "Gee" more than you told me." 

"Yeah, because he told me that we are together!" I scuffed

Quiet. No sound and just some sniffs because of the crying. The sun was covered up with a huge cloud and it felt like night, but it didn't rain. Only the dark.

"Are your hands ok?" almost like a whisper came out of him

"My hands are fine. I don't even know why im talking to you, but my head is messed up, so are you. Urgh- I-I- just tell me why? ''

"I didn't want to, at first. But we were at a party, a bit like that one. Ray gave me a dare to join a meeting thing... And I did it"

"Why did you keep texting me? Do you know even how messed up it was??"'

"I AM MESSED UP, ZARA!" he yelled and it scared me. He was always so calm and peceful, I didn't know he had this in him. "IF YOU THINK THAT ONLY YOU HAVE PROBLEMS, LOOK AT ME!! I AM STILL A 'FAT ASS' !" He saw my face and stood there for a while "See, I am not the type of guy that girls liked! Do you want to see the scars on my wrists or my legs, the fun part is," he laughed in a mocking way "I DIDN'T EVEN MAKE THE MOST OF THEM! They thought it would be funny to cut, TO CUT, the fat boy! But I didn't tell my mom or my dad, or even Mikey, because that would make me STUPID! Im an alcahol addict now and I make the world a bad place. " He looked at his feet, took a deep breath and looked back at me

"Im sorry, Zara. Bye." He turned around and ran to the black gates that gave the way out of the cemetery.

"Gerard, wait up!" I yelled but he was long gone.

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The bells rang and it was time to go. My mom told me to go home, she wanted to stay at the curch to pray. I didn't pay attention to where we were going and my aunt asked me stuff, but I didn't listen to her. Gerard never told me that he cut... Or that he used alcahol! 

I never knew. And I put guilt on him, I know how he feels. Or he knew how I felt, if I was in his situation, I would just hate me. My life sucked, but he sounded so pissed, mad, angry, sad and well- lonely. People hated him so much, they cut him! If I was in his place, I wouldn't be strong enough. I would just kill-

"STOP THE CAR!" I yelled as my aunt looked at me confused in the reflection of the mirror.

"I SAID STOP THE CAR!" I yelled and she pulled over "Ill be back later!" I shut the door behind me and ran. At first I didn't know where I was going, but the first place where Gerard would go, was the park. We had only one park where I lived and Gerard liked artistic places and... I don't have any ideas, that will have to work. 

The park was a few blocks away, the run wasn't easy, but I can't do easy. 

Some drunk guys yelled from accros the street, but I ignored them and soon I was at the park. It was dark and not pleasent.

Some lights were shining, they made the view a bit scary and a small breeze blew trough the trees.

I looked around and I saw a shadow moving around, I didn't hesitate to ask

"Gerard, is that you?" I got a bit closer, but soon

"What?" A known face turned to me and i gasped

"Frank, what the hell are you doing here?!" I was trying to stay calm

"I could ask the same thing to you! You could get raped!" he looked at my arms and I looked at them too... Fuck, they were bleeding from the cut! "Zara, did you?" He looked like a puppy

"Why the hell do you even care? Why are you here ?" I was trying to stop the blood

"Umm... Gerard sent all of us this message" He lifted his phone, I took it and read a message from Gerard. Funny, in Franks phone Gerard was written as Gerard not Gee. *sarcasm*

Gerard: Hi, guys. Im sorry for the shit I got you into. I never wanted to hurt you or make you mad. I know that you never knew this, I didn't tell it to you too, but I hate my life. If you are reading this, im sorry for not telling you before, but I won't have to apologize anymore. Bye, Gerard.

"Frank!" I looked at him with wide eyes

"I know, we will find him!"

We have to find him before he does anything stupid! Why didn't I get a text from him? I took my phone out of my pocket and it showed 1 message from Gee. I never changed his name in my phone. I forgot! I turned off the volume when I was getting ready, stupid! It was sent 20 minutes ago. The message read

Gee: Hi, Zara. You know that I am sorry and this is not just a fake sorry. This sorry is real. By the time you read this, stuff has happened, I don't know if you care. Think of me as a coward, I ran from my problems and now, look where it got me. Im sorry, wish you the best and.... Bye. PS: I didn't want to tell you this, because it is crap, but I love you, Zara and you know damn well what love I mean. Bye. :)