Keep Me Close (My Chemical Romance)

No No No

zaras POV

I took the phone and started to spin the bottle. It span and span when the phone started lagging as if someone was calling or texting. Finaly, it stoped for good and it showed a new message. I know that reading other people messages is bad, but the game kept on lagging, so I opened the message. It was the bigest mastake of my life. My smile started to fade out of my face. The message showed:
Hi, Gee, Sorry about the fight!
I felt cold and my face got pale. I tought that it may be just a missunderstanding, but then I read the ID from who was the text. Zara. Now that I think about it, Gerard never gave me his phone number.
"Zara, did you see a ghost or something?" Gerard said trough laughs
"No..." My voice came out shaky and week "no, no, no..." I couldn't get other words out.
"What? What happened?" Linda and Brendon asked together
I felt my eyes tear up
"Please tell me Im wrong. Please! Gerard, tell me this is not real!!" I yelled and pleeded. I threw the phone in front of him and his face got pale. By the time others had read the text too and understood the situation Gerard looked up to me and stood up.
"Zara, Im so-" Gerard started
"No... No, no no!" My feet felt numb
"It was just a joke. We didn't mean to-" Mikey started, but soon regreted his words. They all knew about this. They all acted to be my friends, they just did it for fun.
"Zara, that's not what he ment" Brendon stood up as well
I had herd enough. Now there was a streem of water coming out of my eyes. I started running, the room was spinning and I felt dizzy. We came to the party with his car, but my dorm wasn't that far from this place so I just ran all the way. My hair was falling in my face and I bet that my make-up was all ruined. As I ran, I herd Linda, Helena and Ray yelling for me to stop, but it was not my intention to.
Just when I wanted to run across the street, the red light came on, but it was too late to stop. I almost got hit by a truck, it didn't even stop to check if i was ok, he just hoonked. Even people who don't know me, hate me.
I was next to the house but I had to take out my keys. By the time I didn't even controle my body, It opened the door by it self. Have you ever had the day, when you remember all the bad things that had ever happened to you in your life?
This was the day for me. I remembered the 3th grade, when Tommy from 5th grade told me that I am a cunt. My ex-best friend Anna from 8th grade telling me that I am full of shit and her starting gossips about me. My parents fighting and yelling. And then... The death of my brother. The popularity I always wanted, ended up being the worst thing happening to me. And now- my friends, who I called friends, playing with me, using me and laughing about me. Gee, or should I say Gerard knows so much about me! I told him personal stuff. And it was just a joke to them. All of them.
I got into the dark room and shut the door closed. My hands were shaking and I didn't feel my feet. I kept the lights out, not in the mood to turn them on and I went to the only place that was away from human beings- the windowsill. Not sure why I wanted to go there, but it seemed like a good idea. I climbed out, took off my shoes and took one cigarette out of the pack that Gerard hid here. The smoke felt good and soft in my mouth. It took my mind off the stuff that was happening around me. Then my phone rang, it was my Mom. I really didn't want to talk about how she misses me and how things are good over there. I hit the 'ignore' button, then a huge urge to sleep hit me and I couldn't fight it. The lights in the park got darker and darker, then they faded.

GERARDS POV
She got really pale.
"It was just a joke.." I didn't hear the rest of what Mikey said, but I had the feeling that Im about to throw up. She was the only person, who made me feel like this. I never ment to hurt her, but las time we had a party, guys made me make a profile in this meeting website and chat with the first girl that pops out. Zara was the girl, at first, it was a joke, but when I started talking with her, she turned out to be so nice, cute, funny and she had a hard time, just like I did. When I snapped out of it, Zara was gone and I felt empty. I didn't hear what others were saying, I just started running. I got in my car and just drove as fast as I could. I still herd her repeeting "no" as she was crying. Her life was so hard and I made it so much worse. Im a fuck up! Tears fell down my cheeks, and I was about to be at our doorm. I ran up stairs and took the key out as fast as possible. I janked the key and the door flew open. It was dark and cold. The big window was fully open and there was a dark shadow on the windowsill. Zara. I stormed to her and she was asleep, but she had a cigarette in her hand. Was she smoking because of me?
I picked her up and carried her to her bed. I was about to put her in the bed, when she woke up. Fuck.

ZARAS POV
I felt warm. Someone was carrying me, but I couldn't see who it was. Wait, black hair and he was tall- gerard. No, no, no, not now, i just stoped crying.
"Put me down!" I said as loud as I could, but it turned out as a sqeek.
"Zara, Im sorry"
"Gerard, please, put me down. Im moving out, im not going to talk to you, don't worry, just please, don't make fun of me. I will leve you alone!" I pleeded.
"I don't want you to leve me!" He said in a whisper
"Don't, just let me go to the bathroom and I will leve you alone." I said as cold as possible
Then i slowly went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror- i looked horrible. It was about the time that I recalled Mom. She wanted to talk about something. I looked at my phone and i had 7 missed calls from mom. Wow, she must really want to talk.
Beep, beep
"Hi, mom, what di-" i started
"Zara.. I can't.... Im so sorry!" Mom said trough sniffs
"Mom, what happened?!" I asked confused and scared
"Its dad! He, he got in a accident! He... He is dead!" Mom said and started crying
"No.. Mom, stop. This is not funny." I felt dizzy
"You can't. He isn't! Don't lie to me!!! He is here. Please! Mom, please! Tell me its a lie!" I cryied
"Im- so- s- s - sorry! Ill call you tommorow, just go to sleep, i will come and get you in a week. Just- s- sleep" she pleeded and hang up. A loud and powerful yell came out of me, i was screeming and I didn't even know why.
I droped my phone and ran to the sink. I kept my blades under the sink, that was my goal. I took one out and without thinking cut my arm. I screemed again, but this time it was because of the pain. i didn't know what I was doing, but it hurt as hell. Still, the feeling was good and with every cut it got better and better. Then I herd a knock on the door, i wasn't about to open it. The door flew open and i fainted.