Guilt

Forever

"Hey we need to talk, the principal called"

Little do I know that this is the end. I am flying of a cliff, staring down at the ground...

The words fly from her mouth, shooting quickly towards me. Bad,bad,bad words. The talk about how I treat others.

Cruel

Torment

Hate

Heartless

Painful

They yank and rip at my heart. Tearing, it in half, leaving it alone in the world.

Sadness

Misery

Sorrow

Grief

Self-hate

Depression

Suicide

She doesn't deserve this. She shouldn't to have to go through this. Black rooms and darkness and loneliness and that sharp, never-ending feeling of pain.

She will get through this.

But what if she doesn't? What if I am too shameful to say sorry? What if she is gone forever?

But in the end I stay away, and I don't. And now I know, I know that I will regret this forever.