Definition of me is you

Wrong

Their lips met sweetly.

Seungkwan didn't know what he was doing exactly, but he just acted without thinking twice. He just planted his lips on that American boy's, he just did! He closed his eyes, as he Low-key anticipates that he would get a return.

He did, Vernon was shocked at the very first moment and decided to return back his bottled up feelings of the years. This was definitely a morally wrong answer, but he didn't give a shit about it. It was like a sudden downpour in the desert, all the organisms living there yearns for this to happen. This is probably the only time he gets to kiss Seungkwan, it's a scoundrel move, but what's more than being called a dastard if he could kiss Seungkwan the man of his dreams?

The two kisses with passion, and with hunger of love. Their lips moved in sync and it was as if it wasn't their first kiss, the chemistry was great.

But this is not right!

A train of thought flashed by Seungkwan's mind, he pushed Vernon away from his touch.

This is just not right! I shouldn't be like this!

Seungkwan stopped himself and forced himself come back to reality. He even slapped himself harshly on his cheeks, which hurts Vernon's heart. Guilty, was the only word could describe whatever he was feeling right now. Embarrassed was probably what was written all over his face, he just couldn't accept the fact that he just kissed another boy when he belonged to one. At least he still thought that he belongs to Seokmin.

Another slap on his left cheek, one more on the right. Seungkwan didn't exactly know what he was doing, but at least this made him feel better, because it's like a repay for kissing another. Vernon just couldn't take the sight, tears slowly flows out too. He was not an emotional person, he had stopped crying since he was 10. The last time he cried it was because he lost contact with his precious Sister, and he had not shedded a single tear since then. To many, tears and sadness may just be a part of life, a norm. But to Vernon it was a sign of weakness, one that he hated the most. He had always thought that emotions was one of the biggest flaw a human would have.

Somehow, Vernon just couldn't take it, he just simply couldn't stand the fact that his precious one is hurting himself. Every slap was a bullet straight to his heart, every tear shed was a stab on the existing wounds. Vernon grabbed Seungkwan's wrist, who tried to resist with all might. When Seungkwan failed to struggle off the strong grip, he tried to used his head to knock it against his pinned wrist instead. Vernon predicted ahead of what Seungkwan wanted to do, and stopped him by pulling him into a hug.

"Boo, please I'm begging you.... stop hurting yourself, it's not your fault for kissing me..." Vernon pled while holding him tight in his arms.

"Let me off Hansol... I don't deserve this! I shouldn't be doing this! Everything is wrong!" Seungkwan wailed as he continuously hit the back of Vernon's back hoping that he would back off.

"Nothing is wrong! You're just following your heart! He dumped you first Kwan! He cheated on you!"Vernon's tone was harsh, he didn't know how to make him feel better but to push the blame on Seokmin.

"Doesn't mean that he cheated on me, i can cheat on him! It doesn't work this way Hansol... just let me go!" Seungkwan was desperately trying get out of Vernon's warmth, he was not only guilty. But also afraid that if he stays in this protected shell for too Long, it would turn into a habit. A really bad habit, that's addictive, and that proves of point of him possibly not loving Seokmin in the first place. That makes him, the real culprit of this relationship.