I usually am able to control my emotions and yet I felt it in my last class of the day which is PE an everything hit me at once and I just wanted to sit in the corner and cry but knew that if I did it would only cause attention to me so I just sat against a wall and waited for every one in the locker room to get ready one friend said something to me when we got in the gym and I said nothing and just said "im fine, nothing's wrong." and told her every thing she wanted to hear just so she dose not worry.
Also lately the thought of suicide has been happening all the time and more inevitable. for a wile I found out that cutting let's the pain, hurt, and anger out and I also did it so my friend would not have to feel it and I was the one who could take the pain.
Then my friend that is really close to me started to cut then she got help and then her family now hates because then think I had her do it when I did it longer than her and I had nothing to do with her doing it I was one who would listen and care and convince her to not comit suicide I helped her. and I get repaid by her whole family hating me and that plunged me into a deep dark void
I am into drawing and now all I draw is me in a jar looking depressed and sad or of that fashion.
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The pain that is felt befour suicide
AcakThe reason I feel pain and how I cope with it or just embrace ………………Everything that is written in this is all true and is how I feel you don't have to read it I don't mind I just wanted a place where I could tell someone how I feel and If life is wo...
