Partners in Detention

Chapter 13

Meriyas Point of View

It has been about a week since we have made up; it is still going well and we have not gotten caught; which is good because we would be suspended from school and my family would move away. I want to ask Jillian to homecoming because it's only a week away and I don't have a date, but my parents would find out. So my plan for this weekend is finding out how I can ask her in secret-- 

"Hi gorgeous," Jill comes up and hugs me and looks at my phone, "Who are you writing that to?" 

"Oh! That's nothing it's just to my followers. My blog. I just write to them about my life. You didn't read it did you?" I hope to god that she hasn't read it because I don't want to ruin the surprise.

"Actually I did. And I think that is a wonderful idea but, it won't work. We will get caught. I am sorry." Jill kisses my cheek, "I love the thought though.

"How do you know it won't work? We haven't even tried yet." 

"Well," she says, "My parents are chaperoning the dance and they will keep a sharp eye on me if I go. I'm sorry." 

"No, it's okay, "I lie and I know she can tell because I look sad. She puts my face in her small hands and looks me in the eyes and says to me, "It will be okay. I promise." 

RINGGGG

We leave for first period and continue texting through class and told to go to detention because we don't give up our phones. 

During lunch we sit in the detention room and just talk about life and I actually learn a lot more about Jill. She was born in Nebraska and she has a twin brother who is already in college. 

Yes she learns about me but there is really nothing interesting about me because I am depressed and I don't like to do anything anymore.

Jillian's Point of View

"Wait. You're telling me that through all this time I have known you, you have been depressed? You seem so happy though." 

"I know," Meriya says with a glance towards the floor. God she is so hot. And to think I used to be straight. "I have been to a mental hospital as well." 

"Wow. I honestly had no idea about this. Have I helped any?"  I hope she doesn't see through me and see that I really hope I am the reason she hasn't caused much trouble lately.

"Well yeah, but honestly you haven't helped a ton. I have just been doing lots of counseling lately. Sorry I haven't told you about it. I just didn't want to worry you about anything."

"Oh, well I am glad to know I have at least helped a tiny bit." She can tell I am sad. I know it. "Hey I am going to go to class early. I have....um....homework to work on..."

She hugs me and tells me that she loves me which honestly does help me a little bit but it also just makes me more sad. 

I don't actually go to a classroom I just go hide in the girls bathroom and cry. I cry about everything she told me today. She told me today that she doesn't only love me. She loves all of her friends; and she tells them that she loves them. I don't necessarily like that. I want to be her one and only love but clearly that cannot happen.

I cry for all of third period and just decide to go home. I don't say goodbye to Meriya because I know that she will see my tear stained face and that she will just want to talk about what is going on. I do not feel like talking to any one at this time.

When I get home I am surprised to see that both of my parents are home and already cooking up dinner. "Hi, mom," I say as I walk through the kitchen. "Hi sweetie. Why are you home early?" "I wasn't feeling up to going to school, so  I came home."