I got in secondary school. Secondary school was kind of a new start for me, I was the only of my friends to go to that school and only 2 people from my previous school went to the same secondary school.
First grade was a bit weird. I had quite a normal school year until halfway the year, liking somebody took place.
I kinda fell in love with the then best friend of my cousin. He cycled a part of our way home with us. So I spoke to him quite often. He was sitting in front of me in class and it was nice talking to him and we could laugh and stuff. So I had been writing about him in my diary. I was an awkward person, I was scared of talking with people I didn't know, I actually liked talking to people who are also awkward and don't want to talk to other people and don't know anybody. That is how I got 2 friends that year. I thought maybe he likes me back, how do I know he likes me, how do I even know if I really like him. So I was talking about him on a lot of forums. I asked people how I would know if I liked him, they gave me advice, I played out the advice, and decided I really "loved" him. So then I asked people how I could find out if he liked me back, most of them told me I just needed to tell him that I liked him and see how it would go. So I decided I wanted to tell him in person, but me being a coward that didn't work out. So I decided I would write him a small letter for valentine's day, but yeah, I couldn't find his backpack. By then I got scared, tried to just forget him or something I don't know. I went to one of my friends and she encouraged me to just send him a message, so I did. I send him a message. She showed me all the game stuff I was wanting to know, because my crush and my cousin were always talking about it and I wanted to know what all these things were. So she showed me what Skywars on minecraft was, I actually thought it was something for a playstation, she taught me how to play call of duty and I really liked that. It was all really much fun, but most of all I had stuff to talk about.
So somewhere in June I decided I would put a little note in his pencil case. Half a week later he still didn't notice it, so I decided to send him a text:
"Look in you pencil case!" he asked me why, and then he asked who's it was, he actually thought it was my friends. I told him it was mine, he didn't really respond if he like me back, so with all good hopes I thought he was going to message me that he liked me back and I would only stop hoping if he would tell me he didn't, I had been mad at him for a month and I stopped cycling with my cousin just to avoid him. And of course my cousin, being my cousin, still teases me with it.
