Through the Night // M.Yoongi

Chapter 30: Jimin

《Jimin's POV》

Hello everyone.

I'm Jimin.

Park Jimin.

I'm... um... currently in my room.

It's very late.

I think it's... one in the morning right now.

Or is that early?

*Shakes head*

S-Sorry...

Haha... I haven't done a video diary in a while.

But I'm only doing this because...

I wanted to apologise.

A sorry is all I can do at the moment unfortunately.

Do people ever feel like that?

Like no matter how hard they try, they...

*Shakes head*

No, sorry, I got off topic.

I just hope Taehyung watches this someday.  

Because... this is him I'm apologizing to.

I'm sorry you have to go through this, Taehyung.

Aish... This is all my fault.

I don't expect to be forgiven.

I just made everyone's day worse.

I shouldn't have been rude to Nayeon.

I shouldn't have glared at Yoongi.

I shouldn't have upset Mina.

This feels like that one time I forced you to come with me to finish a dangerous mission.

I'm still crying because of that.

I was guilty.

I still am.

But now I can forgive myself...

By saving you.

Wherever you are.

I will make sure you're safe.

I will never forgive myself if I find you dead.

I don't want to believe it.

I really don't.

I'll kill whoever took someone like you.

A person that will do no intentional harm.

A person who is constantly positive.

A person who wants to love.

I'm coming for you.

I promise you'll be home.

But...

Haha...

I can't promise you that I will.

I'm going to be honest...

I'm kinda scared.

Haha...

I'm a coward aren't I.

I've always been.

You called me a 'cool dude' in high school.

But really... I wasn't.

But now I might feel like one...

If I save you.

Which I will.

I promise.

Again, this is Jimin.

Today is the 18th of January.

Video diary, end.

《A/N》

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