to be or not to be?

School Fantasies

Today was the usual, 5 lessons, 5 boring hours, but 1 precious day spent admiring him. he's the best. his eyes, his hair, his smile, HIS JAWLINE😍😍 everything about him is perfect and i can't get him off my mind...

whenever i think of him i get these images in my head of us, bodies pressed against each other, cherishing each others warm presence like it will never be there again. of course, it was never actually there but y'know what i mean. i just want to kiss him. every time i see him i tell myself i am gonna talk to him, but after i finally build up the courage, it's time to leave and it gets left until tomorrow, then the next day, then the next, and it's been like that for almost 2 years now.

the thought of his lips against mine, his soft hands running up and down my body, it's just so hard to resist. i have to resist it though. because he's got a girlfriend. Nancy "the slut" Wheeler. that's what they call her. i don't get what he sees in her, she's not even that pretty and she has no figure at all, may aswell be a cardboard box if you ask me😏

i can't wait for the day that they break up. i've got it all figured out. Nancy will end up running back to Steve and throwing Jonathon away like he's worthless. this will upset jonathon meaning he's looking for someone to help him ( me, duh ) i'll get him alone, ask him what's wrong and then he'll explain blah blah blah, i'll tell him how much of an amazing person he is and then, at the perfect moment, i'll lean in and ... you know what's coming... at first, a small but strong kiss.

hoping he feels the same way, he will dive back into it, only a lot more passionate and meaningful. and as we continue to unleash our secret love for each other, we finally realise that we are in fact still in school...oops

As unrealistic as it sounds, i can't wait for that day...day, please come soon....

[ END OF PT 1]

again it's shittttt but idc // requested by @gdedcmjm