Let's Hope They Don't Find Out.

Backtracking

Ezra's POV

Once Aria and I were ready to leave we left for Spencer's without a word to each other. Now we are sitting at the table with the meal Spencer created for us everyone pouring food except Aria and I. I look over at Aria and see her staring at the food with a panicked expression on her face.

"Aria baby, do you want some salad?" I ask her and she shakes her head.

"I'm actually not hungry. Sorry." She says not once breaking eye contact with the food. I grab her plate and pour her food with a sigh.

"Eat." I tell her and put the plate down, pouring some food for myself.

"I'm not hungry." She says looking at her plate pushing it away from her.

"Aria-" I try to convince her.

"Ezra no! I am not hungry! Just leave me alone!" She stands up and walks away. I sigh and put my head in my hands.

"I'll go talk to her." Spencer says softly and stands up going in the same direction Aria went in.

Aria's POV

"Ar?" I hear Spencer ask me from outside the bathroom door. I don't move from my position leaning against the bath rocking my self back and forth trying to calm myself down and the tears falling down my face. "Aria..?" She opens the bathroom door and kneels in front of me.

I don't make a move to wipe the tears away or move from my position.

"Aria whats going on?" She asks me placing an arm on top of my knee. I feel new tears fall down my cheeks and Spencer stands up. "I'm going to go and get Ezra alright?" I nod and she walks out.

A couple minutes later Ezra walks into the bathroom and he sits beside me pulling me into he's side for a hug. I let go of my knees and rest my head in his chest as I cry. He rubs my back and places soothing kisses on my head. After I've calmed down a little bit Ezra breaks the silence.

"Aria whats going on?" Ezra asks softly as he rests his head against my own.

"I can't eat it Ezra. I-I just can't." I hiccup and Ezra sighs.

"You're getting better Aria! You're doing so well, don't throw all that hard work away now." He encourages softly, "What's brought this all on?" He asks me and I close my eyes.

"The apartment. The bed. When I say the bed, I thought back to when we first had sex and that was when our baby was conceived and it brought up so much memories of when I was pregnant and when I lost the baby. Ezra I can't do this." I admit finally looking intro he's eyes as tears fall down my face again, "I didn't want you to disappoint you Ezra, you were so happy that I was getting better that I couldn't tell you. I've been backtracking Ezra. Counting my calories, throwing up if I eat a calorie too much, over exercising and I just want everything to stop. I can't do this anymore, I can't."

Ezra looks at me with tears in he's eyes. He pulls me closer to him and holds me.

"Aria you should've told me when this started! I would've been upset, but I would help you get back to where you were before. This is what I'm here for Aria, I'm here to help you, support you. I knew there going to be days where you would backtrack but I didn't know that they had already happened." He kisses my head. "I think we should stay in a hotel until we go back home and when we go back home I need you to tell your doctor everything that you just told me, and promise me that whenever you backtrack or you feel like backtracking to talk to me about it. No ones going to want to help you unless you want to help yourself. But I am going to stay and help you even if you don't want it. I love you Aria." I nod against his chest and he wipes away the tears from the eye that he can see.

"I love you too Ezra." I sob out and he holds me closer to him.

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After some time of being in the bathroom Ezra and I finally walk out and sit back at the table.

"Just eat your salad at least, for me." Ezra pleads silently and I nod, slowly picking up my fork.

I stab a salad leaf and lift the fork up to my mouth closing my lips around the fork and slowly pulling it out, leaving the lettuce sitting on my tongue. I take a deep breath as I start chewing the lettuce leaf. Once that has been swallowed I move onto the cucumber, carrot and tomato until half of the salad is finished when I put my fork down.

"I'm done." I whisper looking at my plate and then to Ezra, Ezra smiles slightly at me.

"Thank you for eating something." He says softly back grabbing my hand and giving it a gentle squeeze. I smile a little at him and hold he's hand all through out the dinner and dessert until its time to go home.

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"Ezra its going to be too late to go to a hotel now...can we stay with my mom?" I ask him hopefully and he nods, putting the blinker for left on so he can do a U-Turn.

"Of course baby," he smiles at me and turns the car into the direction of my moms. I grab he's hand and hold it resting it on my lap. I kiss he's knuckles and stare at him with a smile.

"What?" Ezra smiles back when he turns to look at me.

"You're amazing. Thank you for staying when I was a total bitch to you and through everything. I don't know how you can put up with me when I can't even put with me at times."

"Aria, I love you. Even though there are times where you make me want to pull my hair out and bash my head against a wall...I love you and you make me the happiest I've ever been. I'm not just going to give that up because you are going through a hard time. And I would never leave you when you need me the most, never." He looks at me briefly before looking back at the road bringing my hand to he's lips and kissing it.

I smile again, "I love you too." I whisper before closing my eyes and letting sleep over take me.