To Sir, With Love

Chapter Thirteen - MTMHML

Sam

FVCK!

Pinunasan ko yung luha na tumulo sa pisngi ko.

It's times like these where I realize how hurt I am.

Tuwing lasing ako, naaalala ko yung mga maling nagawa ko.

Napupuno ng kung ano-anong scenario ang isipan ko.

Paano kung sinabi ko sa kanya yung tunay na nararamdaman ko?

Paano kung sinabi ko sa kanya na mahal ko siya, the moment that I realized it?

I had years, so many damn years, to show her how much she really meant to me. So many chances, and I blew them all.

Masyado akong nasanay na nandiyan siya palagi, na tinitiis ako, I didn't realize that she would get tired, that she would actually leave me.

Love is stupid. I'm stupid.

And now, he's back. They're happy.

They're perfect for each other.

If I told her, we could have been perfect for each other.

This was suppose to be our happy ending...

What happened?

"FUCK!" I screamed

Tinapon ko yung bote ng beer na hawak hawak ko.

"Sam..."

I turned, there was a girl behind me, I couldn't see what she looked like, but her voice was still familiar, my heart recognized her but before I could confirm it, I passed out.

Stephanie

Magkatabi kaming natulog ni Lawrenz, malaki na ang tiyan ko kaya hindi na niya ako mayakap.

Ang cute niya nga eh, kung kanina nilalambing pa niya yung kambal, ngayon naman nagtatampo siya sa mga ito, pero hindi rin nakatiis ang loko, humalik rin sa tiyan ko bago matulog.

Hindi ako makatulog.

Tinitigan ko lang ata si Lawrenz buong magdamag eh. Hahaha, he's gotten even more handsome. Hindi ko alam kung posible ba yun o hindi, but he did. Lumaki rin ang katawan niya, I remember him telling me na kapag hindi siya nakakatulog pumupunta siya sa gym o kaya naman lumalangoy siya.

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko, at hinaplos ang mukha niya. Ang kinis! Mas makinis pa ata sa mukha ko! Hindi naman siya nagising, pero his mouth twisted into a smile.

Geez! How hot can this man get?!

I still can't believe it, how is it possible that this man is my boyfriend? That this man actually accepted me despite the situation.

I may have made a lot of wrong decisions before, but loving this man, giving my heart to this man, is one decision I would never ever regret.

Masaya ako ngayon, masayang masaya.

After about an hour of watching him sleep, I got bored. Anong oras na rin, madaling araw na.

Hindi talaga ako makatulog. Ang likot ng mga anak ko, kanina ko pa sila nararamdaman. Nag pa-party ata sila sa loob ng tiyan ko.

"BABIES! PATULUGIN NIYO AKO!!!"

Pero hindi pa rin sila tumitigil, inalis ko yung kamay ni Renz na nakapatong sa tiyan ko, I got out of bed and went to the kitchen. Umupo ako sa upuan at tumunganga dun, thinking about what I want to eat.

Gusto ko ng ice cream :(

Tinignan ko yung freezer kung may ice cream, pero wala! Naubos ko na pala.