John Murphy | Imagines & Preferences

Imagine // I Hate You.

"I can't believe what I'm hearing." you say turning away from your boyfriend...well...kinda boyfriend. You and Bellamy had been sharing a room for four months now, ever since Clarke left. But sharing a bed was not all that you and Bellamy did at night. Everything was starting to look fine, until now.

"You actually think that this headcase is right? That anything Pike does is for 'the good of the people'?!" You throw your arms in the air facing Bellamy, anger starting to fuel your actions. "Y/n, the grounders can't be trusted. You of all people should know that!" " Oh, don't you dare bring this up right now!"

You lost your best friend in the ring of fire created to stop the grounder attack. That whole thing was a bit taboo, Bellamy had never even brought it up to you before right now. You felt betrayed by Bellamy. You had loved him, but you could no longer stand by his side with this.

"I'm sorry, but this is the hard truth. The grounders want us dead and if we don't do something now, they will have their way. Pike understands that, why can't you?" He crosses his arms and clenches his jaw. You can see that neither of you is going to back down from this.

"Believe me, I understand. But what you're talking about....it's bound to start another war. One that we might not be able to survive." you step closer to him and lower your voice, fighting back the tears. "You're talking about slaughtering 300 innocent people who were sent here to protect us!" You hear your voice break as a tear sets loose. Neither of you seem to be able to believe what the other is saying. Bellamy raises his voice completely overtaken by his stubbornness.

"Innocent!? Each and every one of these savages is to be blamed for the amount of people we've all lost. They started this, Y/n. We're just going to end it." Bellamy's not the man that you thought he was. This proves it.

"Where do you think you're going?" Bellamy yells after you as he sees you grab your packed bag and jacket. "I can't do this anymore, Bell. It's over and you know it."

***

It has been a week. You haven't even talked to Bellamy. You could barely look at his face since the massacre. To you Bellamy had become the monster he'd thought the grounders to be. He'd returned the battle unharmed, that somehow upset you even more. You wanted to hurt him, you wanted him to feel the pain that cursed through your heart and shadowed your mind.

"Why the sad face, Princess?" *ugh* Murphy was the last person you wanted to see. You'd never really talked to Murphy before. Bellamy always told you to stay away from him, that he was a murderer and that you would get hurt...but then again, Bellamy wasn't here was he? His opinion no longer mattered to you.

"Boy drama." You were sitting on a cut down log with bottle of whiskey in your hand. You're guessing you didn't look so good if even Murphy had noticed. "I see. So things must be going great with Bellamy." He says with exaggerated sarcasm.

"Well, you could say that. I mean...we broke up about a week ago." You finally look up at him. He looks disheveled. You all do most of the time. No time to sit in front of a mirror really.

"Eesh, tough luck. Mind if I sit here?" He asks gesturing the makeshift chair. "Sure." You scoot over a bit to give him some space, and offer him a drink.

"No thanks. Can't really drown my demons anymore. Those fuckers learned how to swim." You chuckle a bit. Taking a sip for yourself. "What happened to your arm?" You ask pointing to the bandages on his forearm. "Uhm, dinner tried to eat me first I guess." He gives you a crooked smile and you smile back. He doesn't seem half as bad as Bellamy had made him out to be.

***

A few days had passed. You enjoyed Murphy's company though you'd never tell anyone so. You two always bickered and flirted shamelessly.