Hanji's Lost Son

Chapter 3 My son

(Hanji's P. O. V)
I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and no one knows about him besides Erwin and Armin. I'm going to miss him tomorrow's is his 3rd birthday and he's going to be taken away at 8:00 pm so Erwin told everyone not to mess with me and let me be. I can finally take him out to show him the grass and all but that's for tomorrow. I lay him to sleep and sing him song that I made up as I sing it I see he falls asleep.

Lyrics

It was February 14, Valentine's Day
The roses came but they took you away
Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm
Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs
Dad, you should see the tours that I'm on
I see you standing there next to Mom
Both singing along, yeah on and on

And there are days when I'm losing my faith
Because the man wasn't good, he was great
He'd say "Music was the home for your pain"
And explained I was young, he would say

Take that rage, put it on a page
Take that page to the stage
Blow the roof off the place
I'm trying to make you proud
Do everything you did
I hope you're up there with God saying "That's my kid!"

I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me?
Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me?
Would you follow every line on my tear-stained face?
Put your hand on my heart that was cold
As the day you were taken away

I know it's been a while but I can see you clear as day
Right now, I wish I could hear you say
I drink too much, and I smoke too much dutch
But if you can't see me now, that shit's a must

You used to say I won't know a wind until it crossed me
Like I won't know real love 'til I've loved and I've lost it
So if you lost a sister, someone's lost a mom
And if you lost a dad then someone's lost a son
And they're all missing out, yeah they're all missing out
So if you get a second to look down on me now

Mom, Dad I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)

Oh, oh
Would you call me a saint or a sinner?
Would you love me a loser or winner?
Oh, oh
When I see my face in the mirror
We look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)
Yeah I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now
(Oh if you could see me now)

You could see, you could see me now
You could see, you could see me now

This kid is going to break my heart tomorrow and I won't forgive myself to keep him safe. I gave him a few shots while I was pregnant because I knew it will keep him safe. I crawled into bed and fell asleep the dream I had was a sad one. I could not stop crying when I woke up from the dream I cradle my baby in my arms. All I could do was give him a stuff animal it was a dog a shepard. I grabbed him and walked out side he was happy to be out and he called Armin uncle. We played outside and had a great time for lunch we had a steak. We celebrated his birthday and he had a blast with it the only thing is that he has more energy to run. His k-9 teeth are sharp as a wolf and was more flexible. He looks like me alot he has my brown hair and eyes a little bit of my face. I know I looked like my father when I was young but then I was a spinning image of my mother later on I wonder if that will happen to him. I think it won't and I named him Samson because I like that name and I heard that is what Levi would name his first son so I took advantage of it. Oh and Petra is supper clinging onto Levi I'm not friends with her now because of that. But I saw the sun started to set and Samson was getting tired now it's the final count down.