Human||5SOS

two

"Are you okay?" Mrs. Irwin's voice rings as she knocks on the door. I unlock it and let her come in. 

"I'm fine. I just miss Elizabeth." Lie. I just could't let her know I was crying for no absolute reason. She knew I had to take pills, but she didn't know why, and I want to keep it that way. 

"Please don't mind Ashton, he just doesn't like change. Don't worry, I'm sure once he meets you he'll love you. Now do you want anything to eat?" 

I shake my head and she leaves. When she does I walk up to the piano sitting in the corner of my room. I sit down at it and stare. The memories started flooding in of mother teaching me piano. They may sound happy, but they were horrifying. I dreaded those days, it was living hell. I shake the thoughts out of my head. Though my mother's torture, I often enjoyed playing. It was something that soothed me. I run my fingers over the keys, and just when I'm about to play, there was another knock on the door. Before I could tell them to come in, it flew open. It was Ashton standing with a bowl of fruits. "Mom wanted me to give you this." he said. I walk up to him and take the fruits out of his hands.

"Thanks," I mumble. Without another word, he leaves. Obviously, he doesn't like me. Another person to add onto that list. I set the bowl of fruits down, and lay back into bed. I didn't want to stay awake. I kept thinking about the past. I didn't want to. I didn't want to be here. In this house. In this world. I just wanted to die. Why do I even exist? I was never wanted. Not by anyone. Okay maybe someone. But that someone left me.

I wonder if they have beer. I really am craving some alcohol right now. I just want to forget about everything. I was about to go to sleep, but Mrs. Irwin wanted me to get out of bed and do something. Now I'm here sitting down on the couch watching HGTV with her. And let me tell you, it's boring as fuck. Right now, I'm just playing with my nails and singing in my head. I haven't sang out in a few years since it annoyed my parents.

When I'm about to get up, I hear the front door creak open. Then I started to hear teenage boy voices. Great. Just Great. I quickly stand up and go to Mrs. Irwin's side so the boys don't try to make a friendly approach. "Hello Boys." she waves at them.I awkwardly gaze a different direction hoping they don't notice me.

"Hey Mrs. Irwin." One of them say. 

"Well we're going to be in the garage Mom."Ashton said. He pushes his friends outside. Once they disappear, I walk back up to my room telling Mrs. Irwin that I was going to get ready for school. In two days I was going to a whole new school. 

 I'm just sitting on my bed thinking when I suddenly hear my name. I peek outside through my window to see the boys were talking. 

"Who was that girl?" asks the one with the black hair. 

"Some homeless bitch that my mother brought in." Ashton replies. Ouch. That stings. A lot. But it's not like I've never heard it before.

"She looks like she's on drugs." Says the one with the colorful hair. Well maybe cause I am.

"She probably is." Ashton replied.

The one with the blue eyes and blonde hair remained quiet.

I don't want to hear anymore of the conversation, so I turn around and sit back down on the bed. I take out the photograph and look at it for a while until I hear knocking on the door. I shove the picture underneath the pillow and pretend like I'm listening to music. 

"Come in!" I say. It was Mrs. Irwin.

"Hello Mrs. Irwin." I say.

"Please call me Anne," she says with a sweet smile.

"Well Anne, did you need anything?"

"Well I was wondering if you would like to go shopping with me? I was heading out and thought maybe you would like some new clothes for school tomorrow."

I think about it. I could be stuck here alone with 4 boys that hate me, or I could go get some new clothes. Tough choice. 

"Sure." I say.

She tells me to get ready and I do. I grab some money and slip into a side purse. I go downstairs and right into the car with Mrs. Irwin.

    After a few hours of shopping, we come home. It's about dinner time. I notice that the boys weren't home anymore. Thank god, now I'm in peace. I head into my room and hang my clothes up. After that I go grab a book from my luggage and start to read it. It's called Hero. It's about this girl who is depressed. No it's not a cliche story where a boy comes to save her, but where she saves herself. It's really an inspiration and a motivation to keep breathing every day. 

Nobody knows what hell I've been through, and I don't want them to know. Not even my ex knew, and for that reason he left me. He left since I was closed off. I didn't need love, I didn't need a family, I had myself, and in a few months, I would be off independently in the world. 

I closed the book and went to sleep. Tomorrow is the day I start school. Great.

A/N: Sorry guys, this was a short chapter. It was more of a filler, and it was all over the place. So I was wondering who do you ship Sarah with? Just wondering... Anyways please vote, comment, and please keep reading. Love yall. -priya