Human||5SOS

five

        This was officially the most awkward and embarrassing moment in my life. I shut the door instantly and start to run downstairs. First of all, why are they having sex in my bedroom. Like doesn't he know that I live here now. I open the door of the house and run out and try to find somewhere far away. Today officially has been the worst first day of school.

        After a few miles of running, I end up at the park. It seems like there is no one around. I walk up the the nearest bench at sit down trying to catch my breath. God I haven't ran in a while. It seems really peaceful until I hear a soft voice singing. I turn around to see someone sitting behind the tree with a guitar in their hand. I can't make out anything except that he is a boy, since he is wearing a jacket, and his hood is up. I debated on heading towards there or not. Suddenly a piece of paper hit me in the face out of nowhere. I take the paper out of my hand and look at it to see they were song lyrics. I look for the person who lost these pieces of paper. It seems to be the boy that was singing. That boy is Luke. Luke turns towards me," What are you doing here?" he asks.

         I walk towards him and hand his paper,"Just resting." I reply. I start to walk away from him before I have to explain why I was panting like crazy. I decide to go home since it was getting dark.

"Hey Preston!" I heard Luke yell.

I turned around to see him running towards me.

"Preston, can you like not tell anyone about this?" 

"About what?"

"Me singing..." he says while scratching the back his neck. 

"Oh yeah sure." I reply. Who would I tell anyways? It's not like I have any friends. I wave goodbye and start heading home. This town looks beautiful at night. It's pretty small but it's gorgeous. There aren't many lights so the stars are very visible. The shine so brightly up in the sky. 

Once I get home, I ring the doorbell. Anne opens it.

"Where were you sweetie?" she asks. 

"I was at the park."I said.

After she let me in, I went straight upstairs to check in my room. I put my ear to the door to make sure there wasn't any moaning. It seems clear. I open the door slowly. 

"What are you doing?" I heard someone say.

I jump and then turn around to see it was only Ashton. 

"Oh I was just making sure that your black haired friend and some girl weren't having sex on my bed."

He looks at me like I'm crazy. When he sees that I am actually serious, he starts to laugh.

"Are-Are you serious?" He says between laughter. 

I just look at him with a straight face and then slam the door. I can't believe all he was doing was laughing. I mean his friend had fucking sex on my bed. 

I ripped the sheets of my bed, and put them in the corner of my room. I'm going to have to make some pathetic excuse to Anne about getting the sheets washed. Something like I leaked on the sheets.

I sigh and lay down on the mattress. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. There is just so much going on, and I have no one. I'm alone like always. I don't know if anyone understands but it hurts so much knowing that no one loves you and no one cares. The feeling of not having one single person is so terrible. Sometimes I just want to end my life. I've tried a few times but my parents always ended up saving me. Wait, my parents aren't here anymore. They can't stop me now. 

I get up and walk towards my dresser. I pull out the drawer where all my pills are. I take one of the bottles out and take a handful of pills and swallow them. The rest fall on the floor. I take some water and chug them all down. This is what I want. I want to die. I want to be up there with him. I sit down on the floor and start to cry. I fucking hate everything and I am so happy I am going to die. It will take such a load off of everyone. Anne won't have to shelter another person, Ashton won't have to have such horrible company, my dad won't have to see my face ever again. Everyone will be happy. 

I heard a knock on the door, but before I could reply, I fell.