Human||5SOS

three

"Wake up!" I hear Ashton yell from behind the door.

I groan and open my eyes to look at the time. I still have like 40 minutes untill I need to be at school. I can probably fit in an extra 20 minutes of sleep. I close my eyes but then I hear more knocking on the door. 

"Mom wants you to wake up right now."

I groan louder so he could hear me and I get up. I walk towards the door and open it. I see Ashton standing in front of my door shirtless. I ignore the sight of his toned chest and brush past him. I know that he doesn't like me, and I know I hate him but let me just tell you he is fit. Like damn. 

I walk downstairs and wave to Mr. and Mrs. Irwin. I grab a banana and tell Mrs. Irwin that I was going to eat it upstairs since it was going to take me a while to get ready. I lied. It is only going to take me like 15 minutes to get ready. 

I go upstairs and throw away the banana and then go into the bathroom to brush my teeth, have a shower, and take a shit. After that I put on a loose white shirt and blue jeans with some boots. I let my hair out wavy. I wasn't really into dressing up, but Mrs. Irwin suggested that I dress up nice. After I get ready, I head downstairs. Mrs. Irwin spots me and smiles but then frown. Suddenly I start to feel insecure. Do I look fat? Am I looking ugly? Is this too slutty? I start to panic but then Mrs. Irwin starts to speak.

"Honey, come here."

I walk towards her cautiously hoping she doesn't strike me for looking ugly. As she approaches my face I shut my eyes waiting for the impact. Instead I feel her hand on my chin. I open my eyes to see she is scanning my face. 

"You look beautiful, but to finish the touch, how about we add some makeup?" I nod.

I am so relieved I thought she was going to hit me. She motions me to sit down and I do. She takes the makeup and applies it to my face. I've never worn makeup before. My parents never allowed it. They used to say it would make me look like a whore.

After she finishes, she hands me a mirror and I look at myself. "Is it too much I ask?" Scared that I make an impression of being a slut.

"Nope you look absolutely perfect."she says smiling.

Wow. I've never been complimented before. It feels nice. 

Mrs. Irwin takes me in her car today since it's my first day of school. She drops me off at the front thinking that I don't want to be caught with her when really I actually want her to come. 

I am scared. Really scared. I haven't been in school after the death. It's been about a month and two weeks or so. I'm scared about my academics and my health. I'm scared about my attacks and my state of health. I take a breath of air and start to walk towards the entrance. There were only a few people outside since some of them had class. I quickly walk inside and straight to the office. 

"Hello, can I help you?" The front lady asks in a fake sweet voice.

"Um yeah, um I'm knew and um I was wondering if um I could have my schedule?" I ask nervously.

It has been a while since I've interacted with humans. I barely talk to Mrs. Irwin. 

"Yes, I'll print it out for you. Your name?" she asks. 

"Preston Hyland." I answer.

"Isn't that a boy's name?" she asks rudely.

"I guess." Great, here we go again. Whenever I tell people my name, they always say that. Maybe I was named that because I look like a boy. An ugly boy. Unlike Ashton.

She hands me my schedule without another word. I head towards my first period class which happens to be AP Calculus. As I walk down the halls I see people who just stare at me. I try to avoid eye contact with anyone. I really just want to stay unnoticed during this last few months of school. 

When I enter Calculus, I give the teacher the pass and quickly take a seat in the side next to the window. After I sit down I scan the room to see if any of Ashton's friends are in this class. I look around until I spot someone familiar. It was the black haired boy that looked Asian, and he was looking right at me. As soon as I caught him staring he looked away and I did too. Why was he staring at me? Am I disturbing him with my ugliness? I try to avoid looking in that direction, and do my work.

After Calculus, I have history. My favorite academic subject.  Learning about wars, culture, and religion is really interesting to me. When I walk into my history class I notice there was the boy with the colorful hair. The one that I hate most next to Ashton. When he sees me, he turns to his friend and whispers something and then they laugh. I know what they just said was about me. I could feel the entire class's eyes on me. 

They I hear someone clear their throat. "Are you going to sit down or what?" says a deep voice. I turned to see it was the teacher standing behind me. I feel a lump in my throat and I try to overcome it to speak, but I couldn't so I nod and quickly fast walk to find a chair. I walk between the aisles where the rainbow and his friend are sitting. I see a empty desk and I walk to it, but before I know I'm spread out on the floor. I look up to see rainbow boy and his friend and the entire class laughing at me. My stomach starts to turn, and my hearts starts to pump faster and faster. 

I get up and walk towards the door,"Excuse me." I say between breaths. I run towards the bathroom and once I enter I see a bunch of girls doing their makeup. They turn to stare at me as I pant. I can feel them judging me probably thinking 'Who's that sore loser?' or 'I didn't know it was trash day.' Like the girls used to in my old school. I run out of the bathroom and run into the nearest room next to me. I slide down to the floor. I look at myself to see I'm shaking. I wipe the sweat of my forehead and try to find somewhere to go. I have to get out of here. When I try to get up, my legs feel numb. I look around trying to find a way to get out. So this is how I was going to die.

As I tremble in fear, I hear the sound of footsteps approaching me. I open my eyes to look at someone's legs. My eyes travel up to meet the person's eyes. Once I look into them, I instantly recognize them. They belonged to the blonde friend of Ashtons. I look away.

"You shouldn't be here."My voice says.

"Really, because this is the boys bathroom, you're the one that shouldn't be here." Oh god. I am going to die. Whether it's because of this panic attack or the embarrassment, I'm going to die. 

"Are you okay?" he asks. I can't respond. All I can do is shake. I feel like I'm about to pass out.

And then I do. 

A/N: Dun Dun Duhhhh.... I hoped you guys enjoyed reading this, because I enjoyed writing this. Preston's outfit is on the side. So what do you think is going to happen? Anyways please Vote, Comment, and Read More :)