A/n;The song above will go with this chapter~I really like the vibe the song gives off and it's like you character theme but if you have any songs in mind put it in the comments~ _______________________________________ |Hunk pov| It's been three weeks now and still...M/n hasn't made one smart remark,no pranks,no angry Allura...nothing... Its like he shut all the way down on us..he won't even talk to me. I was watching M/n fix my lion,normally he would yell and rant about the battle damage but...he didn't... "M/n you should take a break."
"Hn."I think he just ignored me because he kept working.maybe...he's keeping himself busy... I got up and left the room so he could be alone. "Hunk where's M/n?"
"Oh hey Matt...He's in the repair room but you won't get much out of him."
"I feel like its my fault."I jumped and looked over at Matt.How would it be his fault...he did nothing wrong so why take the blame? "Don't take the blame when it doesn't belong to you."I gave him a pat on the shoulder and walked away. I kinda want the asshole M/n back...I liked him better than way because he was being himself...
|Matt pov| I know he's right but...M/n from what I heard has changed since I showed up and I feel like I'm the cause.Katie told me about M/n's sister well what she knows. Maybe he's alone now...no one shares his pain anymore...or is it that no one trusts him because of his personality? I watched him work from the door way.
His movements stopped and he turns around and looks at me. "....."
"S-sorry,did my staring bother you?"M/n shakes his head and gets back to work.I walked in and took the closet seat near The ravenette. Okay I got this close...will he say anything? M/n looked at me from the corner of his eye but turned them back to what he was doing. "M/n..are you uncomfortable with me?"He dropped the tool in his hand and looked me in the eye.His eyes were sad,hurt,anger and confusion,like he didn't know what to do with himself. "Sorry I'll just leave now.."
"Hn."He's not uncomfortable with me..he's not angry...just hurt.
|M/n Pov| I slammed my head against the leg of the lion.It's better if I keep quiet,no one likes who I am so why not give them what they want..it's the least I can do until I leave. I finished up Hunks Lion and left the room but I bumped into Shiro,I was sorta surprised me but I didn't show it on my face. "M/n can we talk?"I nod and could tell he wasn't satisfied with my nod. "What's up with you?Why the sudden change?Believe it or not but it's worrying everyone and no offense but I fear your plotting to kill us all." I could feel my lip twitch into a frown.Really...that's the first thing he thinks!?
I decided to let my anger show for the first time in three weeks. "You know what Shiro..Fuck you.Has it ever occurred to you that my silence is what I'm giving to you guys...you all complain about me being who I am!News flash I didn't exactly have the best experience with humans,so excuse the hell of me for trying to change and make you all the slightly comfortable but you know I dug my grave and now I can't get out because all I hear is will he do this or will he do that!So Fuck you for kicking me while I'm already down!"I stormed off still angry as hell not even my venting made me feel better!
I found one of the hidden compartments in the castle and got in with a bottle of vodka and drowned my sorrows away.Alexandra will kill me for drinking... One of the walls in the compartment showed my reflection and I saw
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Pidge is lucky...though her brother was dead...but he was alive this whole time but me on the other hand...I'm forever alone. I wiped away my tears and chugged the first bottle of vodka and was on to the next one.
~Time skip~ Okay I must of drunk more than usual because I feel slightly buzzed. Shit I need to get back to my room...which way was it again... Okay I lied I'm kinda fucked up.I picked a random direction and started walking. "Guys I think we're at fault."it was Shiro.
|No ones pov| M/n stood by the door and listened. "Oh really now."Keith said with a voice dripping with sarcasm. "Okay Keith that was uncalled for." Shiro barked out..
"Okay that's not important,but the important question is will he ever be the same?Now don't get me wrong M/n can be an asshole but...that's who he is,let alone the fact that humans have caused him emotional harm and took away what was most precious to him.Then on top of that were making it worse!Can we talk about the fact that he found My brother?!Honestly now he could of said nothing about Matt and he wouldn't be here with us."Pidge felt guilty for not saying thank you to M/n.
Everyone went quiet know that it was true. "But it turn he no longer has someone to share that pain with so of course he's going to feel alone,he tried to change for us to feel comfortable and what did we do!?Make him feel like shit!The only people who aren't at fault are Hunk,Lance and Matt!"Keith yelled. "No...it's all our fault Keith,we had a part in this just like everyone."Matt said with a frown on his face,clearly understanding the problem at hand. "I've only been here for three weeks and I see how tense you guys get when he's around.I can see how hurt he becomes at that.He's so distant from me because he's scared that I'll treat him the same,No one can change who they are but will he?No he won't but he wants to try."Matt looked at everyone and they all knew how bad they messed up.
M/n stayed where he was,sure he was drunk but he could understand. But he saw it was time for him go to his room and when he got there he collapsed onto his bed and was out.
|Shiro pov| Once the morning came around I went to M/n's room to apologize for yesterday. I knocked on the door and I heard an irritated groan on the other side of the door. "Do you have to knock so hard?"M/n opened the door and I was hit with a strong smell of...Vodka? "Are you drunk?"
"I was yesterday but I have what many would call a hangover from hell"I opened my mouth to say something but m/n held his hand up making me stop. "Before you say anything,I need coffee."He walked passed me so I followed. Once In the kitchen he made both of us some coffee which was nice of him. "Talk."
"Huh?!"
"Talk or I leave."
"Look I'm sorry for yesterday,I...I didn't mean it the way it came out.I was concerned and they joke wasn't a good one I just made you angry and I feel like more of an asshole than you are and sorry for calling you an asshole and I'm trying to apologize."I don't know why but I just started ranting on about being sorry. "Shut up already,ya got your point across."
"But-"
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He shut me up...with a kiss! "Like I said shut up because your non stop ranting is pissing my off more than this hangover and you know I have to deal with Lance and Keith though out the day and I don't need you bugging me as well."M/n pats my head and walks off but before he could get any further he yelped and yelled at Keith to get off his back. He's so...ugh whatever I prefer him like that..but will he fight for humanity one day or will he continue to fight against us? I sipped on the coffee he gave me. Hmm it's bitter....
