Loss

CHAPTER 18

I get back into his car because my family is full of people who don't want me to be with him. We drive to his house, only to be greeted by sounds from upstairs, and a really bad smell.

"Must be one of his mistresses." Tobias says.

"What? that's terrible." I say back. I feel bad for him.

"Nothing I can do about it." he says.

I sigh and I walk into his room. I set my stuff down and I look at him with a puppy face.

"What's wrong?" he asks coming up to me, sitting down next to me. He embraces me in a nice warm hug.

"I don't know, I just feel bad for you. Like you deserve such a better life then this. I don't understand how you get through this everyday."

"It's hard. He does care about me, yes, but it has taught me so much about myself that I never use to know existed. And just think, if I didn't have this life, I probably wouldn't have met you, and i'd never really know what true happiness felt like."

I hold back my tears. "Tobias, I-"

"Shh..." he says as he kisses me. His lips are soft and he is so gentle. I love him. He's mine, and always will be.

-T's POV-

"Shh..." I tell her. I know she feels sad and alone in this world, but I will never be able to feel what she does, and she will never be able to feel what I do.

I lean in and I kiss her. She is so warm it sends a slight shiver throughout my body. I pull away and I look her in the eye. She looks healed. I put my hands around her waist and I lay down. Her tiny little body fits perfectly with my big bulky body. I close my eyes and I think of her and me, just walking down a beach, hand in hand like usual. I smile, I feel her looking at me, so I open my eyes, still smiling and I look down; she, too, is smiling.

"I like your smile, it's nice."

"You don't really think that do you?" I can believe she thinks I have a nice smile.

"Ya, I think your smile makes you look human." She says. I burst out laughing and so does she.

"Was I not human before?" I ask her while still laughing.

"Barely." She says as she laughs her natural, adorable laugh. Her laugh is so her, like it fits her personality. Not the sad and depressed personality, but the normal girl personality.

"I love your laugh." I tell her. She is like the nicest person on earth when she isn't depressed.

"Thanks." She says.

I smile again, and I tackle hug her on the bed. She squirms a little but I just lay in her, listening to her heart. She eventually stops squirming and she just let's me lay on her. I smile again and I wrap my arms around her, hugging her, making sure I don't hurt her.

I don't ever want to hurt her, ever. I couldn't live with myself if I hurt her. I release my arms and I just lay on her. Her heartbeat is slow and steady, but it's comforting to me.

I get of of her and put my head by hers. I put my face by her neck and I breath in her scent which is crisp and smells like her. I don't know how to describe her scent, but it is so comforting and calming to me that I relax and just lay down next to her.

She moves and puts her phone on my iHome. Then she turns on the song human.

I can hold my breath

I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

Be your number one

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh

I can dance and play the part

If that's what you ask

Give you all I am

I can do it

I can do it

I can do it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on

Be a good machine

I can hold the weight of worlds

If that's what you need

Be your everything

I can do it

I can do it

I'll get through it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human

I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

'Til I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

Her voice makes me sleeping and I fall asleep, laying on by her side, listening to her voice.