I'll Wait

Chapter Two: Distance makes the Heart Grow Fonder

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Because I could watch you for a single minute, and find a thousand things I love about you.
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My mental state was no longer existing. The mere touch from Kelvins hands burned at my waist. Time stood still. We just stayed there staring at each other. I didn't care at that moment if I was making a complete fool out of my self. There was something in his eyes, something that was there long time ago, all those memories were flooding back. Soon enough the fiery touch was gone. I slowly looked up and he was there, he took three steps back as if I was contagious. So close yet so far, his eyes were no longer warm they were dark, almost black, a evil black. The kind of black that I hated. The one that hurt me.

     "Next time could you maybe watch your fucking step" he barked at me. He heavily sighed and narrowed his eyes at me.

" Sorry I wasn't watching where I was going." I looked at the ground in shame. A pang in my chest took place instead of the fast pace of it that was there seconds ago.

    "That's what I thought," I looked up and before he walked away he looked at me like I was a piece of trash and said his last word to me"Pathetic."

     I watched him walk away. He knew I loved him. So many people told him. I even said it to his face, you know he wasn't always like that, we were friends the kind where you just wanna make them laugh, the kind of friends where you look into their eyes and think
"Man where have you been all my life." But like I said people change and so do feelings. You know how people say distance makes the heart grow fonder. Well, fuck me because it's fucking true.

  My eyes swept over the cafeteria not much had saw our little thing but some were whispering, I believe those are the people who need to get a life. Of course I totally forgot my best friend had been next to me the whole time, she was quietly ranting to herself under her breath.

  "I swear if one day he finally comes to you begging on his knees I'm going to fucking kill him in his sleep," she murmured to herself, "Oh that fucking asshole is going to pay for breaking my best friends heart." She clenched her fists, "Just wait boy." She said looking in the direction he walked off in.

I stood there observing her. I love my best friend because she's been there for me when my heart was too heavy. I'm glad she was here with me through the long run. We met in 8th grade when boys started getting interested in girls, the year before, Kelvin just stopped talking to me altogether, everything just disappeared into thin air, and there was Dylan to pick up the small pieces of my heart, but truly my heart can't be filled. We have been through so much shit, from almost getting arrested (lucky we're minors), to getting grounded
from sneaking out and going to bars in the middle of the night. But yeah, there's my best friend for you, but I would also say that I envy her also like those other girls, Dylan had curves in the right places, not by her stomach like me, he hair was long and straight as if she straightened it everyday when really all she did was comb it, her hair was a raven black, it was so shiny too, her eyes were an ocean blue color, she had a cute button nose one that framed her face better, and Cupid's bow lips that were always moistened, unlike my chapped ones. No matter where we were people would always turn their heads to look at her. Sometimes I even wonder what's she's doing here with me.

  " See what I told you he's just a fucking stupid dumb ass. Don't listen to him." She exclaimed. She looked at me and I smiled at her, a real one, her eyes softened and she knew what I was thinking.

   If only Dylan. I would do it for you. But I just can't. She looked at me like she was reading my thoughts and nodded, and that is why I love my best friend.

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I came home to find Mama cleaning up after two of these horrible monsters I call my brothers. Honestly I feel bad for Mama, how she has to pick up after my two younger brothers and my baby sister, especially when these days all my dad does is complain and start fights, it's like they are just forced to love each other, my dad has also been getting worse, and it hurts when Mama cries because of him, she doesn't speak about him but I know it's because of him.

" How was school Honey?" She asked exhausted.

" Same as always Mama," I said to her, " Hey Mama do you mind if I just take a nap, I'm a little tired I feel like my eyes are gonna fall out soon."

" Go ahead honey," She said while picking up some toys, " Do what you need to do."

    I left after she confirmed not to sleep to long or I'll wake up in the middle of the night and then I might not be able to go to sleep again but that's exactly what I did. Whoops.

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