To get high,
To be a slut,
To get so pissed drunk and get the worst hangovers on a Sunday morning.
To do a Satanic ritual,
To be a vegan,
To shave my hair,
To slit my skin open and carve beautiful patterns in myself.
To get stretchers,
piercings,
tattoos.
To do every illegal act possible.
To run wild and do everything I would know I would regret if I was really thinking.
To waste my life away before I've ever lived.
But these are not my wishes.
It's just a group of stupid thoughts.
To change myself,
make myself so wonderfully unrecognisable,
that I don't even remember who I am.
"I wish I didn't have to feel.
Then I wouldn't feel like this."
