Fire and Desires: Book 8 (Completed)

Chapter Five

I let our mutual feelings of love wash over me. All that pent up feelings started to consume us. I forgot all about Brandon leaving and the danger of starting something that would end in tears. Now that it was all out in the open, we followed our hearts desires. We followed them all the way back to Brandon's house and spent the afternoon exploring our love. Time seemed to have stopped but it wasn't until we noticed the sun disappearing and the darkness invading the room that we realised that we had been there for hours.

Brandon was lying next to me softly stroking my hair. I could have happily stayed here forever. I closed my eyes and felt the tingle of his touch rush right through me.

"Beautiful. So beautiful." He leaned over to kiss me and we let our feelings of love consume us again.

Necessity soon forced us out of bed. I had a shower and walked into the kitchen where I noticed Brandon preparing dinner.

"Sorry. Wasn't really expecting company. I just whipped up something really quick. Hope you like it."

He had prepared a dish of angel hair pasta and pesto. Crusty bread complimented the meal. I gratefully accepted. It had been hours since I'd last eaten and I was starving. I took my seat next to Brandon and starting eating. Things had changed so fast. Much faster than I had anticipated but I guess time was our problem here. We both avoided the topic. That Brandon was leaving in three months. He hadn't said for how long but I knew it would be for a long time. Our love for each other had just come out to the surface. I had a feeling that soon enough it would disappear as fast as it came.

"Izzy. Are you ok? You seem quiet. You're not regretting today are you?"

Brandon was looking at me with concern. I looked at him and saw in him what I had always seen. My best friend. My confidante. I could tell him anything. I knew I could be honest with him.

"No Brand. I don't regret it. How could I? I feel so close to you. I guess today just made us feel closer..."

He smiled and kissed me softly on my lips. I needed that. I needed his reassurance to keep talking.

"Brand. The reality is you're leaving in three months. Now I feel like I'm not only losing my best friend, I'm also losing something could be the most wonderful thing in my life. I don't want you to leave but I don't want you to give up your dreams either. You deserve this Brand."

He looked at me with sad eyes.

"I don't know Izzy. Although this feels like it is just beginning it also feels like it has been going for a while. Truth was I was hesitant to apply for the position I never thought I'd get it. I mean there are others out there with so much more experience than me. When I thought you loved Jordan. It just made it easier to leave. Now the truth has come out, I'm unsure. I know it's your day off tomorrow. Message Britt. Tell her your staying here tonight. I don't think I can handle being apart from you right now. Forget about the future. Let's just think about right here and now."

I smiled at Brandon. He was giving me a cheeky smile. I pushed all my doubts aside. I knew it was dangerous but my mind wasn't thinking straight.

"And what do you propose I tell Britt that we are up to?" I gave him a sly smile.

He leant over and started kissing my neck. I surrendered. He whispered into my ear.

"Just tell her we're making up for lost time..."

The next morning we were rudely awoken by the sound of the bedroom door crashing open.

"Brand how about answering your phone once in a while...OMG!"

Through my sleep heavy eyes I saw Jordan standing there pretending not to look but I knew he had already seen too much. I quickly buried myself further under the covers.

"Jord! Can you give us a minute. I'll be out in a sec."

Jordan quickly left but not before giving me a hurt look. Brandon brushed my hair from face and kissed my cheek.

"Sorry about that. He's been staying at Kai's place but I totally forgot he was coming over today. I guess my mind's been on other things."

He smiled and looked at me in a loving way. My heart filled with love. This felt right. Being with Brandon I mean. Not being caught by Jordan. That expression on Jordan's face. I knew it hurt him deeply.

Brandon and I entered the kitchen together. Jordan was idly flicking through a newspaper.

"So Brand. You told me to come over in the morning. I tried calling you but you didn't answer. I can now see you were otherwise preoccupied."

He gave us a withering look. I could feel any sympathy I had for him drying up. Before I knew it I was shooting my mouth off again.

"Jord. You left me remember. You left me behind instead of breaking up properly with me. You weren't there when I needed you. You never contacted me. What was I supposed to do. Sit around and hope you'd come back home."

"Well I never expected you to move on straight away with Brand."

"Hey Jord that's not fair. Izzy and I have always been friends. Besides what we do now is none of your business. You can't just waltz back into town and expect things to be exactly the same. You made your choices. Life moves on."

In the light of day, reality hit me. I couldn't deal with this again. I couldn't come between two brothers. I thought the time away might have made things better but now it felt like no time had passed. I suddenly felt angry. They were arguing over me like a possession. I belonged to nobody. I was my own person.

"I'm leaving. You two idiots can fight but I'm not your toy. I'm not somebody you can just play with and discard when it suits you. I'm done. I'm done with both of you."

Jordan and Brandon stopped bickering and looked at me in surprise.

"Wait Izzy. Don't go." Brandon looked sad. It broke my heart just leaving like that but I needed to.

"Sorry Brand. I thought I wanted this but I got lost in the dream. Where did you seriously think this was going. That we would declare our love for each other and then you'd just leave. Leave me behind like Jord did. That's the reality. Well I ain't falling for this again. I'm taking back my control."

So then I gathered the rest of my stuff and left and walked out on two guys. The two guys that both held a piece of my heart.