Out Loud ; Luke Hemmings

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"i reach out for you, im desperate for your warmth. Can you tell me where we went wrong? at least tell me just to move on"

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"Drinking white wine in the blushing light, just another LA devotee" Luke and I sang the lines to LA Devotee by Panic! at the disco.

Luke and I are having another carpool karaoke on our way to the beach. We would always do this whenever we're on the road. We would always turn on the car radio and sing our heart out. We both have almost the same taste in music which is great because we would sing songs we both know all the lyrics to.

I was the one driving, my hands were placed on the gear and he placed his on top of my hands. We both looked at each other and smiled.  We have been together for 2 years yet we still feel cheesy to each other.

I have always loved our carpool karaokes together. Music is our passion, Music is our escape, we definitely love listening to music. So listening and singing to music with the person you love the most is so awesome.

"Are we there yet, are we there yet?" Luke asked like a little child. "Not yet and stop acting like a child lmao" I answered back. He kissed my cheek out of the blue so I was quite surprised with the kiss. "Hey, Im driving thats a distraction and thats bad" I giggled "You're so corny but you're so cute so I still love you" he said as he playfully pinched my cheek.

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I miss you. Your cuddles, hugs, pinches on my cheek, most especially your sweet kisses. I miss hearing you say "I love you". You're the only person who showed me what love truly means.

From every morning, I wake up with a kiss on my forehead. When I come to the kitchen there's always breakfast ready for the both of us. Every morning is our hang out time, where we talk about how each other's life is going where we get to chat.

Now my morning, I wake up with the sound of the alarm blaring through my ears. When I come to the kitchen, there's always no food prepared so I take the leftover from what I ate last night which is probably some pizza or donut or I call some fast food. Every morning from now on, Im just on my phone scrolling through my boring old news feed.

Where in our relationship did we go wrong? What did I do to deserve this pain? Why Luke, why did you let me suffer like this? Just tell me to move on. At least help me to move on.

I miss you Luke. Please come back evem though I know you can't.