Sex, Love, and Basketball *Books 1 and 2* (Slowly Editing)

36. Head Ahh

Excuse any mistakes. This chapter is mainly for laughs. But there are serious parts as well. Enjoy!

Malaya

"Why the hell would you tell her no?"

"I didn't want you to have to spend the break alone. And I didn't want you to have to face my parents alone." I explained to Nadia.

We were discussing the whole thing with Raquel asking me to come home with her for Christmas break. Of course I wanted to go. Anything that got me away from my parents was a plus, but I couldn't leave Nadia behind. We've had each other's backs all our lives and that wasn't about to change no matter how much I liked my girlfriend. I like her a lot by the way. So so much. Like more than like. I'm getting distracted.

"It's not like I'd spend the whole break with them. I can handle Christmas. Plus we'll have other family members there. You're going with her. End of discussion."

I chuckled at Nadia. She really thought I had to listen to her.

"First off, calm your little ass down. Second, I'm not going if you're going to be stuck there. The last thing I need is them making you get bad again. How the hell will I be able to help you from another country?" I asked and Nadia frowned.

"Lay-Lay, I swear I'm fine. I'm happy now. I want you to spend the break with Raquel because I know you'll regret it if you don't. As long as I have my dad there, I'll be fine."

I wanted to believe Nadia, but I couldn't help worrying about her. She seemed happy on the surface, but I grew up with the sad girl that resided beneath what she let everyone else see. I held the girl that would fall apart during the holidays because she missed her mother. She can pretend to hate Melanie all she wants, but she not only loves and misses her, she blames herself for her mother's death.

I've always been afraid to let Nadia be alone for too long. That's why I begged her to come here after she graduated. I can't protect her if we aren't together.

"That's not true and you know it. I love your dad like a blood brother, but he doesn't know you like I do, Nadia."

"He's not overprotective like you either." She mumbled while rolling her eyes.

"So what if I'm overprotective? How can I not be over protective when the last time I left you tried to-" I cut myself off mid sentence because I know Nadia didn't like me talking about it.

"I tried to what? Kill myself? I already told you that was an accident. You and dad just overreacted."

I didn't feel like arguing about this. It was years ago, but it still made me worry about leaving Nadia alone for too long. She has gotten better, but I was a little paranoid when it came to her.

She never gave you obvious signs that she was getting bad again and that's the scariest part. She's so good at hiding everything and pretending to be okay.

"Look, I'm taking my meds and I have Daniella. You have nothing to worry about." She said making me mentally roll my eyes.

Nadia must have thought I was stupid, I knew she wasn't taking those pills. I never said anything because I hated what they turned her into. Antidepressants are supposed to make you feel like "yourself" again, but with Nadia she just turned into this emotionless, apathetic robot. That's rare according to her doctors, but I guess they feel like no emotions are better than bad ones.

"Can I just think about it some more? We have two weeks until break and Raquel isn't rushing me for a response."

"Because she's awesome and that's all the more reason for you to go with her. Maybe for Christmas you two can finally you know what because I know you've been sexually frustrated." Nadia said making my mouth drop open.