Imaginasi

Love.

Story inspired by: My crush.

Personally, I think this world is unfair. That probably will explain why I'm here at the top with my babe.

"Hai Amir, I'm Syah, your psychiatrist. Awak ada di sini sebab cikgu counselor awak recommend saya, correct? "
"Yeah, my mother assigned me here. So wassup? " Aku duduk di hadapan Syah and get comfy. Aku sekarang dekat rumah Syah. The house is pretty neat.
"We are not talking about me here. We will be talking about you. So tell me about you." Syah senyum.
"You look pretty young to be a psychiatrist. You plug your way in? " Aku cuba untuk menyakat dia. Let's see how strong he is.
"SO, tell me about you." Syah menegas.
"Okay serious sir. I am Amir. Born in a such perfect family-" Cue my rolling eyes. "Kidding. Ayah, travellish job. Mother, flower shop. As you can imagine I have daddy issues and mother issues as well. Both are ignoring me. I bet this is like what psychiatrist always fantasizing. A client with fucked up family."
"What is going on inside your head? "
"A static. A continuous loop of static."
"Okay, anything interesting happened today? "
"Aha, I met a girl. She's hot. Like if I am straight I would fuck her. Cantik gila doh. Shame that I prefer dicks."
"You're gay? " Syah tanya aku. Bruh, this ass only takes dicks.
"Yeah, kau tak tahu? I thought my mother told everyone yang dia kenal that I'm gay and supposedly being gay makes you very rebellious."
"Why? "
"Haha, you should hear her talking about my sexuality. I've been into few fights and ponteng sekolah kadang kadang but she thought I did it because I am gay? Like what the fuck? That woman need to wake up. It's 2017 for fucks sake."
"So why did you been into fights? "
"Um, because I refused guys that want to fuck me."
Syah pandang aku dengan smirk. Okay, this bitch.
"And what about ditching?"
"Uh, aku ponteng sebab I want to fuck. I have curfew so I need to get some dicks before that."
"Are you sure, you are not rebellious because you are gay?"
"Um yeah, if I was straight aku boleh gaduh dengan lelaki lain sebab perempuan and aku boleh ponteng sekolah untuk pussies. Stop being sexist."
"Okay- Oh look it's already been 30 minutes. Looks like our meeting is over. Remember to come back next week okay?"

"Hai Amir! Nice to see you again. Please, comfort yourself."
Aku duduk di tempat yang sama aku duduk minggu lepas.
"So anything interesting happened today? "
"My friends with benefits showed up masa aku tengah tidur dekat library. Shit was so fucked up. Long story short, I got into another fight. The bitch punched me dekat perut because he didn't want anyone to know why we fight and the fact that he sucked my dick."
"What? Why gaduh?"
"He knew." Aku pandang pintu sebab aku nak keluar and aku taknak pandang Syah di mata.
"Knew what?"
"He knew that aku tipu kat every friends with benefit yang aku ni homeless and ayah aku work as a firefighter while my mother is a drug addict whore. I don't know why okay? It was just a defensive mechanism when they ask me to hang around. Like I just want sex, bukannya fancy relationship. Anyway, he knew the truth and got mad."
"So that's it?"
"Yeah, he just got mad pastu tumbuk aku and blah. It was such a small matter to everyone right?"
"Oh come on, I didn't mean it like that. "
"Anyway, remember this hot bitch the other day that I told you she was hot that I felt I would bang her if I am straight? This homeboy fucked her. Shit was hot but it felt the same like the other sex I felt with dicks but this one, I felt feelings. Like real feelings. Bukannya feeling untuk cum but love, yknow? Like shit was real so it was good but it felt weirdly different since aku kena cum dekat luar."
"Okay I don't want to know about your sex life. Anyway, why not hang around with her more. Explore your sexuality."
"Mother would be happy. You know, ever since aku confessed my sexuality mak aku stop pergi church and ayah aku menjauhkan diri. In the old days, every sunday kita orang akan pergi that one church yang dekat dengan rumah aku and we would eat ice cream on the way home. I miss those days. So anyway, now each time kita lalu jalan yang ada church tu, mother will always tenung je kat church tu. You know what that means. The bitch missed her religion but too ashamed to go there because of her child."
"Macam mana kau tahu? Maybe mak kau meninggalkan religion yang bersumpah untuk membunuh gay people sebab kau."
"Hahaha. That is too nice to be true. Every night she will pray to a crucifix that was hidden at her wardrobe."
"Um okay, so our session is over but last question, why do you put your father as a hero that work as a fire fighter while mak kau is the whore that addicted to drugs? Don't you think that is a bit bias?"
"Ugh I don't know man. You're the psychiatrist. Go solve your client problems."