So my family is moving. And we didn't get to bring the TV in time and switch the cables so I told my mom I really wanted to watch this and she said okay so we went back to the old house just so I could watch it and they could finish cleaning. I was watching it I was getting ready I was getting excited but every single time that they mentioned BTS I actually started tearing up a bit. When it came time for their performance I lost it I started bawling my eyes out I couldn't help it. I'm just so proud of what they've done and how big they've become the things that they do is succeeding in life. I honestly couldn't watch the whole entire performance because I was crying during it like I didn't stop until 2 minutes after it was over, I have to go real watch it again because I missed it and I couldn't see it through my tears. Like I don't know what's wrong with me I don't know if I have a problem I don't want to say I'm obsessed but I also think that all that crying was not just cuz of BTS I feel like it was family. because I haven't cried in about 5 months and I really needed to cry and I haven't been able to so I guess I took that opportunity to start bawling my eyes out and my mom started recording it and I was like so drained I felt terrible. But I was just so happy that they were being able to perform at the American Music Awards like think about it it's just such an amazing thing in life to be able to do that and not even be American or speak English. I don't cry often I don't want to cry often. But when it comes to things like this I guess I just can't help it. I've never been part of something that has made my emotions go crazy like this I feel like this fandom, ARMY, it's just so amazing and it's not even just a fandom anymore it's actually family.
