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Friends, Family ?

I woke up at around two in the morning. I got up from the tent and went to the bathroom. As I went back to my tent I noticed some kids still out. Some were singing others were dancing and laughing at each other. When I went back to my tent I realized how dark it was in there. I could barely see my own hands. I went and threw myself on top of the bed. I tried to get closer to Angel but he wasn't there. I reached out for him but he wasn't there. I started swinging my arms and legs around trying to hit him, hit anything, but I couldn't. I couldn't find him, I kept reaching out trying to find him, to make sure he wasn't gone, that he was still with me, that he hadn't disappeared and left me alone. I started crying and sobs escaped from my mouth. I felt someone's arms wrap around me and whisper "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Angel pulled me to his lap and rubbed my back in circles.

"Why would you do that it wasn't funny, what is wrong with you." I said while punching his arms and back.
"I know I'm sorry it was a stupid joke"
"Whatever, you dick" I snarled as I wrapped the blanket around me.

Angel pulled my back to his chest and puts my legs between his. I fell asleep like that. When I woke up Angel was still sleeping. I decided to let him have his rest and just went out to see what was happening. I saw Jackeline laying down on top of a hill. I laid down next to her. She looked at me and smirked."looks like someone had fun last night". I looked down and saw what she meant, I still had Angels short on and underwear, that's all I was wearing. I transformed them into ripped jeans and one of my training shirts I use.

"Better"
"Much better, you look ready to kickass"
"So do you, why you out here so early"
"Just.......thinking"
"About what" I asked raising my eyebrows.
"Stuff"
"So specific"
"Hey can I ask you something"
"Sure anything what is it"
"Where you come from, don't you have anyone that misses you.... I mean, I'm sorry that sounded bad. It's just you never speak of anyone, not even your parents, you never even seem sad to be here."
"Um.....well....it's a bit complicated"
"If you don't wanna talk about it it's fine"
"Actually I wouldn't mind getting it off my chest but only if .. I mean ...... um"
"It's ok I wanna know, I'll listen"
"The reason I never really talk about my friends is because I never really had any"

Jackeline looked at me with raised eyebrows and a pitiful look.

"I mean I had friends just not friend friends they were just people I would hang out with they were always just there. I felt like I annoyed most of them and I knew they didn't like me it just I don't know." I sighed heavily shifting into another comfortable position while Jackeline sat with her elbows on her legs. "And my parents well they were ... they weren't great"
"Im sorry your parents are like that, have they always been not great"
"Since I was four I think, the thing is what a lot people don't realize about abusive parents is that we can't always hate them because a lot of them are quite nice half the time. It makes it hard to hate them because it's like they've been horrible to me but they treated me to a present yesterday or a cute little chocolate bar so I'd be rude to hate them because of what they've done for me and it destroys your mind because then people question if they actually are abusive when you seem to like them at that time. Even when my dad would hit me and my mom would beat me down emotionally I just couldn't hate them because then they would be nice to me or give me things. And when my parents started working more than ever I was a bit relieved but they didn't stop hurting me they just stop being nice all together." I felt tears forming in my eyes remembering how bad they were and how happy I was to be away from them but also feeling guilty for feeling happy.
"Sorry I asked"

I shook my head and smiled. I got up to hug her, she giggled and we rolled down the hill hugging. We landed at Amanda's feet and she had the nastiest snarl I'd ever seen. "Do you have a hoe and a boy toy." I rolled my eyes and started to walk away but I noticed Jackeline stay behind. I looked at her signaling for her to come with me but she waved me away glaring at Amanda.

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I'm sorry not much has bee going on but I'm trying to get to a certain point in the story but tell me in the comments if  you want some action or any specific scenes