When Misfortune Brings Some Love

Chap 6 - Little Big Secret

Later, on that night, Ryuuta was sleeping soundly beside Naoyuki. He didn't know that Naoyuki stroked his hair softly and stared at his angelic face so lovingly. A soft sigh escaped from his plump lips when Naoyuki kissed his forehead and caressed his cheek with the back of Naoyuki's hand.

"Only if you know how much I love you..." Naoyuki gently whispered those word in Ryuuta's ear. He kept the photos of Ryuuta and him under his bed along with some gay magazines. It was his 'little secret'. He loved that boy since the first time they met. Never once he forgot about that day.

----FLASHBACK----

Eight years old Naoyuki was sitting under the tree alone. He had just been transferred into that school because of his parents job. He knew no one, and he decided to eat his lunch by himself. When he opened his lunch box, he saw a boy sitting alone on the swing not so far from his place. He stood up, brought his lunch box, and walked toward that boy.

The boy on the swing was looking at the ground, his bangs covering his eyes. He heard the sound of footsteps coming toward him. He clenched his hands on swing handle, but his head still bent down.

"Hi! My name is Shinra Naoyuki." Little Naoyuki was introducing himself. "I'm new here and I don't know anyone. Would you be my first friend?"

"...ne..." A faint whisper was heard from that boy's lips.

Naoyuki didn't catch the replied clearly. "Excuse me? What did you say?" Naoyuki asked.

That boy stood abruptly from the swing. "I said, 'LEAVE ME ALONE!!!'" He shouted and ran away from Naoyuki, leaving that poor boy alone and confused.

"What a weird kid..." Naoyuki scratched the back of his head, taken aback by Ryuuta's reaction.

On the next day, Naoyuki met the same boy sitting on the same swing again. He approached that boy again and put his hands on his hips. "Hey! What's your problem? Why you acted like that yesterday? Did I do something wrong?" He asked.

"Mind your own business!" That boy complained under his breath.

Naoyuki clicked his tongue. He was starting to get headache because of that boy's stubbornness. "Hey! Look at me when you're talking with me!"

That boy raised his head and looked into Naoyuki's eyes straightly. A pair of ash coloured eyes was looking at him intensely, making his heart was pounding wildly. 'What a beautiful eye... It would be great if the sadness disappear from his eyes.' Naoyuki thought.

Those eyes were so beautiful, round and big, decorated with a long eyelashes. His skin was pale like winter snow. A red plump lips pouted but never broke the perfection on that boy's face. Such a shame, a frown marred that beautiful face. "What do you want from me?" That boy asked, getting annoyed.

"I just want to be your friend. Is that wrong?!" Naoyuki said bluntly.

The boy's eyes widened. "M-my... My friend?" The anger now disappeared from his face.

Naoyuki nodded his head enthusiastically. "Yeah, sure!"

"B-but no one wants to be my friend." the boy's eyes darkened.

"Why?" little Naoyuki tilted his head.

"Because I'm ugly!" the boy answered in horror.

Naoyuki stared at the boy dumbfounded. "Eerrr... Huh?!"

"No one wants to take a picture with me! People said that my eyes are too big and has weird colour!" The boy continued, "The size of my face is also too small, not normal like other people!"

"But you―" Naoyuki was cut by the boy's unstoppable rant.

"No one wants to talk to me! No one wants to be my friends because I'm ugly! I know it! They always talk about me on my back!!! They always said that―"

"Whoa!!! Wait, wait, wait!" Naoyuki cut his rant, "I think there're some misunderstanding here."

"There're no misunderstanding! I know I'm right." the boy argued.

"Did they directly say that you're ugly?" Naoyuki asked.

"No, but―"

"Anybody said that your eyes are like a doll's eyes?" Naoyuki asked again.

"Yeah, they said that. But its because it's big and has dull colour. I knew it!"

"Did they said that your face is so small?" He asked again.

"Yes."

"I know it..." Naoyuki sighed, rubbing his temple. "Actually, they're complimenting and admiring your looks!"

"You lie!" the boy denied. "If it so, then why no one wants to come and talk to me?! I know I looks like an alien! A... a... a freak!!!"

Naoyuki scratched his cheek. "Well... I think it happened because they think that you are seemed out of their reach. You're actually really pretty, you know!"

"Uh... Um..." the boy blushed, "Then why you don't do like everyone else does? Avoiding me?"

"Avoiding you? That's ridiculous! If you think you are ugly, then I must be super ugly! After all, I don't mind to be different!" Naoyuki said proudly. "So? Do you still want to be my friend?" He stretched out his hand.

The boy nodded and shook Naoyuki hand shyly.

"I'm Shinra Naoyuki. You can call me Nao." Naoyuki grinned.

"Igarashi Ryuuta. You can call me Ryuu. Thanks for being my friend..." Ryuuta gave his new friend his first smile, a real smile that came form the bottom of his heart.

----FLASHBACK END----

With a mind which was flooded with the memories of their first encounter, Naoyuki caressed Ryuuta's cheek once again and placed a simple sweet innocent kiss on Ryuuta's lips. 'You make me fall again and again every time I see your face... Oh, only if you knew...' Then he was slowly drifted into his sleep.