Midnight Heartbreak

7. withdrawal

Going through withdrawal is one of the worst feelings in the world.

You feel empty.

And the one thing that can make you feel whole again
is unreachable,
forbidden.

Some argue it is an addicts fault for becoming
addicted.

But can you really blame me,
for being addicted to him?

I've been told I'm only addicted to the idea of him
but how can that be?

His very name is a temptation
his very eyes are like pills
and his lips laced with some drug.

Because no matter how much I try to forget him,
I find myself drawn to him.

Just thinking about him makes me feel less empty,
is he what I'm missing?
is he what I need to feel whole again?

All the dreams I have of us together,
they're pathetic hallucinations.

My addiction to the sound of his voice,
is nothing but unhealthy.

I need to get over this ridiculous crush.

But am I strong enough?
Can I conquer the pain of withdrawal?

It's so hard letting go...
even harder to forget
and to move on.

I still crave his love, his attention,
that high I get when he talks to me,
or even just smiles my way.

Before I felt like I was walking on air,
but now
that high has begun to fade.

And now all I can feel is pain,
and the sense of being lost.

And worst of all,
feeling completely
worthless.