Obsession

Exhausted

Songs of the Chapter

•Daylight Ron Pope

•Figure 8 Ellie Goulding

•Neon lights Demi

Harry's POV

"That was close for a minute I thought we were going to actually die in that building." Ashton says.

"Shut up Ashton I'm not in the fucking mood." I say through clenched teeth my fist formed into balls by my sides.

"Harry calm down Payson thinks your dead hell she thinks we are both dead she will be left alone now." He says giving me a devious smirk.

"I said shut the fuck up Ashton I don't want to hear you damn voice." I yell.

I'm not in the mood to talk to him I just want to think. Did I make the right decision going with Ashton and faking my death?

I wonder who told Payson she had no idea what was happening she just thought I was fixing the house or some shit like that.

I wish I could just see her one more time but I know that's to risky it's better for her to think that I died in that explosion it's better for every one. Plus if I go back I know that I won't have it in me to leave again.

"Earth to fucking Harry." Ashton says waving his hand in my face.

"What do you want I thought I told you to leave me the fuck alone." I say

"Yeah I don't listen well but you already know that." He says taking a bite of an apple.

"Ashton this isn't going to be like last time I'm not your mate anymore I'm only here for Payson's sake so don't think that we are buddy buddy." I say

"We had so much fun last time we always had the same taste in girls and I guess we still do Payson is a perfect example." He says.

I stand up and charge towards him doesn't he know Payson is my breaking point.

"Don't ever fucking say her name again." I say grabbing the collar of his navy blue tshirt.

"Okay chill." He says and I let go of his shirt.

"The faster we get out of here the better I was thinking we can go to the states." He says changing the subject.

"Why do we need to get out of England?" I ask

"It's to risky being here to many people know us and we are suppose to be dead remember." He says

I nod not saying anything else. I can't leave here I thought I could do this but I can't I love Payson to much to leave her behind.

Payson's POV

I haven't slept in three days not since Perrie told me the news about Harry. I have no desire to eat but Perrie keeps shoving food down my throat for the baby's sake.

Everyone keeps coming into my room asking me if I'm okay I say I am but I'm really not and they know that. I have no emotions towards any of this at least none that I am willing to deal with its better to not feel anything than to feel everything.

I look around the room everything I spot has a memory of Harry. The air starts to thin making it harder for me to breathe its like when Perrie told me Harry was dead all over again. I stand up and rush out of the room.

I walk down stairs the kitchen light is the only thing on. I walk in and see Niall reading I sit down across from him.

He looks up his eyes widen shocked that its me. "Hey." He says

"Hi. I didn't mean to interrupt you." I say and mean it.

"No it's fine." He says giving me a shy smile.

"How are you doing Payson?" Niall asks me putting his hand on top of mine.

"Fine." I state

"Don't lie to me Payson you can tell me how you are really feeling." He says and I know he means it.

"I'm tired I can't sleep when ever I close my eyes I see him and when I open them I'm in that room and every where I look I see him." I say rubbing my free hand over my wrinkled forehead.

I probably look so wacko to him right know I have bags under my eyes I haven't brushed my hair today. I'm a wreck.

"You can sleep in my room I can just sleep on the couch if you would like." He offers.

"I don't want to impose I can just sleep on the couch." I say

"Payson you are pregnant I'm not going to let you sleep on the couch you can sleep in my room." He says giving me a sincere look.

"Okay but I don't want you to sleep on the couch you can sleep in the bed too." I say

"Are you sure I'm okay with sleeping on the couch." He asks.

"Yeah I'm sure." I say and mean it.

I don't like Niall like that I just need someone to understand what I'm going through without prying and that just so happens to be Niall.

I stand up and follow Niall out of the kitchen to his room. Niall opens his door revealing his room.

"You don't think Aubrey will get mad if we sleep in the same bed." I ask

"No she will understand." He says taking the extra pillows off the bed and onto a chair in the corner of the room.

I climb on the bed and get under the warm blankets Niall does the same he scoots all the way to the edge of the bed so he doesn't touch me.

"Niall you don't have to scoot all the way over there." I say

"I just don't want you to feel uncomfortable." He states.

"Niall it's fine." I state.

He moves closer he is looking at me like I am so fragile that if he does or says the wrong thing I might break.

What Niall doesn't know is Harry made me strong it's almost like very thing he did that made me tough was because it was always his plan to leave me.