Why, Her?

Just so you know.

Benny's POV

I tap my fingers on table. As the adult are trying to decide.. where they're gonna go.

I noticed Jamie stands up & heads to bathroom. But didn't close the door.

I need to pay attention to her. I got make sure she keeps a leveled head.

I hear the sink she's throwing water on her face. So I walk towards the bathroom.

Benny: hey..

Jamie turns to look up at me

Benny: how are you holding up..?

Jamie sighs

Jamie: I don't know.. I'm living

Jamie: I'm nervous...

Jamie: I-I'm scared.. what if my dad is and my sibling-

I put my hands on Jamie's shoulders

Benny: breathe Jamie. Breathe

Jamie takes a deep breath

Benny: I said breathe not hold your breath

Jamie: oh.. yeah

Jamie: how are you holding up? You always are asking me how am I doing..

Benny: okay.. but don't worry about me.

Jamie raised an eyebrow

Jamie: why? I always worry about you..

Benny: but why.

Jamie shrugged

Jamie: I just do.. I worry about everyone.. that includes you

Jamie: plus you know I care about you.. but sometimes I think you worry about me too much..

There was a short pause

I look through the door seeing if anyone listening to our conversation.

I close it just in case

Jamie sits on the counter

Benny: I worry because I think you might just slip away or something..

Jamie looked at me.. then looked away

Jamie: I'm not..

Benny: *sigh* I just feel like... You say you care about me.. & you "Still" like me kind of..

Benny: but you distance yourself.. like did I do something wrong?

(I know this isn't good time.. but it just sort of slipped out)

Jamie: It's not you..

Jamie: it's never been you.. you never did anything wrong

Jamie: I'm just... I don't know

Jamie: I'm just.. a fuck up

Benny: no you're not!

Benny: you don't see what I see.

Benny: everyone fucks up.. some more than others... But doesn't mean you're not special.

Jamie: ...

Benny: and I fuck up.. shit nobody is perfect Jamie.. so let's fuck up together & survive this hell whole together..

Jamie looked up at me again..
And smiled a little..

Jamie: hey.. come here

Benny: um.. ok

Jamie hugged me.. but it was different I felt a slight relief..