9th Generation; The Celestial Knight Part 1

'It was his fault! It was because of him that I had to endure this pain!'

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Where am I? I felt like I was surrounded by darkness but all I saw was light. Suffocating. It's so bright it hurts! I didn't belong here, wherever here was. I had to break free!

The light was closing in. I looked around frantically. There's nothing besides searing light. Wait! No. There's a spot that's dimmer than the rest. I push at it, hammering my fists. Let me out!!!

I broke free. The light was left behind and the pain instantly subsided. I'm floating in air. I can float?...in air?...what is air?

I was facing a boy. He too was floating. He had no clothes on his thin body. A bright light was emanating from from his chest. Was that where I had come from? Was I somehow part of him? No. It can't be! I'm a person...right?

He stared at me with a perplexed look on his face. I hated that look. I hate him! Something about him irritates me beyond belief. And yet he seemed familiar. No! What am I saying! He's nothing like me!

What do you wish for the most? 

'Arghhh! That voice! It echoed through the insides of my mind, as of trying to break out.'

What is your greatest desire?

'Leave me alone!' I yelled out! But there was no sound. I had no voice. Why don't I have a voice!?'

Tell me child. What do you seek? Tell me and I can help you reach your goals! That is if you do what I say.

'STOP IT! SHUT UP ZERA! GET OUT OF MY HEAD.'

I just called her Zera...but I've never heard this voice ever before. How do I know these things???

Ah...So you do know who I am. Why do you resist me then child? We are one and the same. 

'We are not the same! You're a monster! You destroyed millions of civilizations! Killed countless species. For what? Your own twisted pleasure?'

Well Yes. Wouldn't you do the same? Look at that boy in front of you. Tell me. Don't you have the desire to kill him? Besides, you said you're nothing like him either, so, what does that make you?

Kill? Kill him? I hate him...I don't know him at all but I still hate him...enough to want to kill him though? Maybe. But there's also another feeling. What is it?? It's swimming just under the surface of my thoughts but I can't make it out. There's something about him...
His eyes. The naive look in them, like a deer starring down the barrel of a hunter's gun. A deer? That's...an animal...right? No matter. It makes me sick! Why him? Why had I been a part of him? Through his open mouth, I could see his teeth. Pearly white. He hasn't yet tasted blood. Hasn't yet tasted what the battle for survival truly means. But I haven't either have I? What am I even saying? His throat was exposed. I could clearly see his pulse. That little bastard. His heart isn't even racing. Does he not know who I am? But...who am I?

'Who am I? I want to know who am I? What am I? That's what I want!'

You silly boy! Hahaha. I'll be generous this one time and give you this answer for free. You're a shadow of course. You're the shadow of a guardian, just like I was. We were made to kill. To create chaos. To destroy the Universe. It's our sole purpose. We were created for that. Now tell me what do you really want? 

To kill?  Create chaos? Destroy the Universe? I don't want to... 
I couldn't bring myself to say it. Something was holding me back and it wasn't Zera. Why shouldn't the Universe be destroyed? It created beings like us. Our sole purpose is supposedly to destroy it. It deserved to be destroyed if it did something this stupid. Besides, I had a personal hate to the universe. It created me and now I'm destined to spend all eternity alone. Why shouldn't it all just vanish...Why...?