𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥

22; daisies

I had never felt so overwhelmed in my life. The business the boys undertook and worked with was ridiculous. It felt like my head was consistently spinning in motion, the cogs inside my brain never stopping for a second. I watched the boys work harder then I'd ever seen, sure I'd been to an interview and photo shoot with them but this was a whole different book. They were rehearsing, helping, setting up, trying new things, going to interviews, going to photo shoots, all in one day and somehow they still managed to hang out with me for and after dinner. It had only been a couple of days but I could see I was slowly sliding into my place with minimal panic attacks I never told anyone about as I had just called Mabel who answered without hesitation back in L.A. Today Jack was really distracted and I knew exactly why, this beautiful girl had just showed up with the director of everything and holy shit I was blown away by how gorgeous she was and I could tell it was taking his attention away. She had beautiful long brown hair, the prettiest little face, brights eyes and the best smile I'd seen apart from Zach's. The nerves were bubbling up in me as I found myself accidentally too close to her without knowing her, how could someone stand next to her and not be ashamed. Zach had winked at me earlier, maybe he had something for her. I tried to brush off the thoughts as I already knew where I stood with him, friends. I could feel my heart cringe when I thought of the word and the truth. I was letting him steal my heart without permission. I mentally groaned,

"Hey everything okay love?" I whip my head to the girl my eyes widening, had that been out loud?

"Oh my god I didn't think that was out loud, everything is fine I uh..." she giggled making me smile shyly as she held out her hand gesturing for a handshake.

"I'm Aspen, Aspen Loeffler, you are Abigail, Ive heard lots about you" she smiles again winking making me breaking my smile into a dropped jaw.

"Well it's nice to meet you ahaha I'm sorry I probably should have introduced myself earlier I just suck at making friends"

"I'm surprised you must of somehow won these boys hearts easily as you are all they talk about well especially Zach" I laugh staring at them feeling the gratitude I've felt for so long about them.

"Maybe, do you wanna go get pizza?" I try not to wince at my words, why was I so awkward.

"Oh my god please, I thought you'd never ask" I laugh again as she swings her arm around my waist waving at her dad who nodded. We spent the rest of the afternoon mucking around with many slices of pizza making me wish for more friends like this and missing Mabel. I got a few texts from the boys but ignored for longer, we sat outside at this nearby park among the Daisies, she braided my hair softly as I talked about everything, it was ridiculous how open I felt with her as her fingers delicately placed the hair behind each strand in a position I struggled to do by myself.

"So Zach..?"

"What about Zach?"

"Come on Ab! I know you like him!" God she just hit a new topic and that was it. Cat out of the bad, milk spilt. I was blabbing on and on her occasionally laughing. She put some of the tiny flowers into the braid showing me before asking a random stranger to take a picture who happily became a professional photographer surprising us both.

"This is so cute!!! I have to post" I felt the colour drain, I wasn't ready for my Instagram or any Instagram to see my face. I had spent hours thinking about this and I could see from her expression she could tell something was bothering me.

"If you don't want me to, I won't-"

"I want to but maybe..." I grabbed the phone cutting majority of my face out making her sadly smile but she understood after the past hour of my talking, complaining and retelling my life. I smiled as she clicked post, her phone instantly blowing up.