𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥

30; crushed

I bolted through the emergency doors of Los Angeles's National Hospital smashing the doors wide open making different people in the area to turn around to see what the racket was. My eyes were red and puffy from the 10 minute car ride here, Mabel and I bawling the whole time and in a moment when I looked up at Ma in the rearview mirror I saw a couple of tears falling down her pale cheeks. The boys were blowing up my phone wondering why we left so quickly and without a goodbye but I couldn't bring myself to look at them...

Pa sat high up high in the seat of his Seadan, his little girl was finally coming home and he dearly missed her and her cranky but bubbly self. He missed mimicking her, teasing her and having the best conversations that could only come from her. The radio was down low playing a tune from his favourite composer which he happily hummed to the sound of the car moving bringing a certain peace he could only get in the car alone. It was an awfully busy day in L.A making him feel nervous knowing he wasn't the best driver around. A man with a long grey beard was perched high in his truck, a load of Sunny's milk packed in the back of the trailer, his head bopping to his metal rock. The  large green truck filled with dairy was turning the bend of the highway and Pa could see it coming toward him but he didn't realise it wasn't turning in the shape of the road and was coming straight for him till the last few seconds. The crash seemed to take for ever; as adrenaline coarse through his system. He could see there was no hope. He was trapped in a steel prison. As the side of the car hit the truck, he suddenly hated inertia. His body was flung forwards his face hit the airbag, his nose crumpled and broke instantly. All he could do was hope for the best as the world around him turned black with the last thing he could hear being the soft ending to his favourite song...

I cried into my hair running past each curtain cut section, my phone was buzzing nonstop in my pocket but I couldn't let myself grab it out and press accept, I needed to find Pa. The cleanness and pristine white made it feel like the walls were collapsing around me.

"Pa? Where is he? Where is Mr Neil?" I said asking around the busy nurses they all shrugged making fury form within my chest I started to raise my voice as Mabel rushed to my side squeezing my hand tightly but I let go racing up to the reception.

"WHERE IS MR NEIL?" I half whispered sternly she looked through her computer then pulled away from the desk indicating to follow her through the emergency area. I could see heaps of people with different injuries seeking different things to quench the pain or to fix themselves. We kept walking till we reached a section which I quickly pulled the curtain away. He laid there, eyes closed, mask held to his mouth, bloodied face. Doctors and nurse were frantically moving around him as Ma began sobbing at the sight of him grabbing onto Mabel as tears just continued to stream down my face. He was far from okay.

"What's happening?! Is he alive" I cried in my ugly crying voice, the nurse at the end of the bed turned trying to be brave.

"He's unconscious but he's breathing. We have to take him into surgery straight away, he's lost a lot of blood and may have brain damage. Excuse me." I stared at them as the ripped the curtain away quickly moving themselves and the bed around us. We were sobbing messes and Ma was holding us both as I tried to tug away to follow him down the hall.

"Pa, pa, pa!" I cried trying to breath the pressure from the blow hitting my chest. I couldn't lose him, why did I have the fucking short straw, everyone I loved was getting hurt. I couldn't lose Pa like I lost my mother surely I couldn't, Mother wouldn't let it happen, right? I felt the tears beginning to stop, the tank empty as I crumbled into the guest room chair which we had been lead to, a few rooms away from Pa's original room. I felt memories flash by my eyes, pictures of him taking me horse riding, him at breakfast with me and Pa just being Pa. I sat there emotionless staring at the opposite wall trying to figure out what life would be like without him, he couldn't leave I needed him. I felt the familiar feel of my phone buzzing in my pocket sighing I pulled it out seeing Zach's contact on my screen which I hit the green button

"OH MY GOD AB WHY DIDN'T YOU PICK UP TILL THE 15TH CALL. I was worried, what's going on? why did you leave without saying goodbye? whats happening-" I felt the sobs begin to pick up again as he kept blabbing in worry

"Pa's in the hospital, he was hit side on by a truck on the way to your house" I heard the other line of the crunchy call go silent a small whimper pulsing through the silence.

"What hospital are you at?"

"Los Angeles National Hospital" the final beepings of the call went through making me cry more, why would he hang up I needed him the most right now and he just hung up on me. I felt lost. He was meant to be there for me and he just ended my call making my sobs louder. I continued staring at the wall crying and crying. Pa, my rock, how could I do it without him. He promised me he'd be there for my graduation in 2 years and I told him he'd walk me down the isle. No, he had to survive. Please please mother let him stay. My heart rate started pumping the sound of bees filling my ear, every noise growing louder.

"Not now please." I whispered Mabel looking across her mascara all down her face, her nose sort of snotty. She pulls away from Ma and crouches in front of me as I closed my eyes trying to slow my breathing but I could hardly keep calm every vein in my body throbbing in pain. I needed a stab of pain killers but no medication could fix a broke heart.

"Abigail, he could be alright, just calm down" she said pulling me into a hug but my body felt lifeless.

"Mabel I need Pa and Zach, he-he ended my call, I needed him to talk to me and now-now-now-now" I whimpered my chest caving in on my heart till I could hardly breath. I couldn't finish my sentence my panic controlling my shivering body. I couldn't see through my blinding tears but I felt Mabel's arm release my shaking body. I always had believed in angels but hardly in god but today I hoped that God, whoever they were was watching me seeing what he was doing was wrong and he should let Pa have a miracle, I couldn't even imagine seeing him linked to 20 more machines, doctors scattered around him the frantically moving. I was lifted from my little seat half walked half carried the warmth spreading through my freezing body, the waiting room's air conditioner up too high. I was still blinded by tears, my eyes slammed shut and my body shaking so violently, choking on my own tears.

"Shhhhh it's okay," I pulled him in relieved, my head resting against his chest on the long soft plunged couch in the corner. He was here.

"Zach-h-h"

"It's okay Ab, I'm here and may have gotten a speeding fine" I finally opened my eyes staring into his brown eyes finding the calmness he always bought to me. He's here. I chuckled softly hiccuping at his expression as he brushed away my tears with his thumb holding me tighter around my waist.

"A speeding fine, I'm sorry"

"It was worth it, trust me" I snuggle in closer my eyes scanning the room, my face tear stained my arms holding onto him incase he'd unlikely, make a runner or something. The soft lifts of his chest was rocking me to sleep but I kept my eyes as open as I could but soon I couldn't try no more and they gently closed.

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That was difficult to write as I had vivid idea and imagination but couldn't find the words to match it. I love Pa as a character as well and I was struggling to write it out.

I'm about to release my new book which is called "Broken Apart" and is about the one and only Jack Avery :)

Anyway have an awesome day babessss xxxx
Alluring Heart xx