Kendall Jenner Imagines {GxG}

You Don't Love Me

"Uh-what are you doing here?" Kendall asked the rapper that stood in front of her, leaning against the doorframe as she held the wooden door tightly, making her knuckles turn white. Behind his tall figure, she could peek the stars glowing calmly in the night sky and a soft breeze made her shiver though going unnoticed by the dark skinned man. She's perplexed, thrown off by his sudden appearance. It was tense, after all she didn't expect her ex to be showing up on her doorstep and the timing was just as bad; today was your anniversary because you have been dating for half a year now. Kendall already prepared dinner and decorated the living room with roses and cheesy notes. Candlelight flickered and caused long shadows to wander around the walls. The faint scent of vanilla invaded her nostrils, she smiled because she managed to do a romantic evening, exactly like in the movies she adored so much. The result is definitely worth seeing and she was proud to have done that all by herself. She couldn't wait to show off her great work. But first, she'd have to deal with him.

Rakim sheepishly scratched his neck and began to explain.

"I want you back."

This threw Kendall completely off, for a second time. She had a relatively good break-up with him, he understood that she didn't love him enough to be together and he accepted it. Kendall was glad, because at the time she was captivated by the stunning girl she would celebrate with later tonight. That was one of the few moments in life where things went the way she wanted to.

"R-Rakim, you didn't seriously show up, tonight of all nights, expecting me to take you back that easy? You know I'm kinda bu-"

He cut her off, stepping forward, close to invading her personal space. Kendall didn't know if it was her, but the air suddenly became thicker making it hard to breath normally. She bit the insides of her cheek nervously.

"I knew I wasn't the perfect boyfriend. I neglected you and shut you out everytime my friends came over or if there was a party. I lived by my desires and that made me ignorant to all the people around me, including you. I just completely blew them off to have fun with smoking or drinking. I lived day after day just enjoying material things I had but I wasn't once grateful for the people who have been there for me when I needed them. I know it seems silly but it was a mistake. Not loving you enough to come home everyday and snuggle up with you to our favorite movies. I didn't realize I needed you, you were a rock in my life and now that you're gone; what should I do? I have found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with and that's you." He finished in one last big breath, relieved to finally being able to apologize and maybe win her back. He knew he was a good guy and this time he would prove it.

Meanwhile Kendall stood completely frozen, stunned by her ex boyfriend's revelation and having to take in his confession. Her wide eyes still stared at his face, guilt and regret written all over it and she could see in his eyes, that he was nothing but sincere.

"Just tell me, do you love me? Even if it's only a little bit?" He took a step closer, gazing down at the brunette, an unspoken plead in the air. He was desperate.

"I-I have Y/N now, you don't g-get to do that to me, it's too la-" Kendall whispered shakily, and she was sure you could hear her heartbeat one mile away. The blood rushed to her ears pounding like waves on the shore and she began getting dizzy at all the feelings that crashed above her head and tried to drown her.

"I know your happiness matters and maybe she can do that, but she will never be me.

I was the reason you smiled once; let me be again."

Suddenly bad but also good memories started flooding back to her mind, things she surpressed for a long time to lessen the pain he caused her. But she also saw the times he made her laugh and perhaps it was because she was nostalgic, overwhelmed and shocked, it didn't matter; this night she has created her biggest regret.