Life Goes On

What if? (9)

"I dont know Niall, I mean, Louis doesn't cheat. It's not in him. He's always been kind and forgiving and calm, and he loves me. He tells me a hundred times a day. He may be irrational and sassy and he may infuriate me sometimes, but he would never cheat on me."

I put the weights down on the floor and take the towel Niall hands me to wipe the sweat off of my forehead. We set the weights up for Niall and easily started pushing them up and down against his chest.

"I know that Harry-" he paused between each rep "but that doesn't explain where he is going all the time, and why he's suddenly ten times happier?"

I sigh, contemplating all of everything that is going on. He loves me, I know that. We've been doing so good since he was discharged. It's almost his birthday and our wedding is set for February 16th, and we're both ecstatic.

"Harry help here?" Niall huffs and I'm suddenly pulled out of my trance. I quickly grab the bar from him and apologize shyly.

"What if he's smoking again? Maybe worse the ciggies this time? He has to sneak around so he doesn't get caught smoking weed." I question the air around me. I knew that what I was thinking was silly but I couldn't help it. I don't want to begin to think he's cheating.

Niall gives me a look and I drop the idea as quickly as it came, because it was silly. Louis doesn't smoke anymore, and if he did he would tell me. I didn't care that he smoked the first time around. He knew the risks and he still wanted to put his body through that. He quit for me though.

"He tells me he's going to the gym, and then he leaves for three hours at a time. He does come back sweaty and stuff but it doesn't seem like that's all that's going on." I rub my face with the palm of my hand as I sip from the almost empty water bottle. Niall and I️ met when he started opening for me on my second world tour, and we've been best mates since. We decided to start working out when he was on tour with me and we've been hitting the weights solid since as well.

"Your being irrational Haz. That boy loves you like crazy. You remember my friend Zayn? He was deployed with Louis. Zayn said that you were all he ever talked about. He said he would re read the letters you sent him and even cried on his way home because he was so damn excited to see you."

"I am being irrational. This is silly!" I laugh at myself. I felt the heaviness shake off when Niall was saying all of that and he smiled back at me, pointing at the track to start our normal two mile run.

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"Harry Styles! I got the job!" My fiancé says as he bursts through our front door. I didnt even have time to react because suddenly his whole body was sitting on my lap, and I was sitting on the couch.

"Hazza I got the job! I get to be a drama teacher! It's all I've ever wanted!"

"Lou I'm so happy for you! When do you start!"  I pull him into a bone crushing hug and he relaxes into me momentarily.

"Monday! I've got to call mum and get some nice shirts and damn it this is amazing!"

He springs from my arms and fishes for his phone is his back pocket, flailing around his hands that had a stack of papers in it. Louis dials the phone and I watch him pace back and forth with excitement , talking to his mummy.

I love him so much, of course he isn't cheating on me.

Once he gets off the phone with his mum and his sisters, I ask him if he would like to celebrate his new found job.

He agrees excitedly and I told him I would have a few friends come along with. I ringed up Niall and asked, and he said he would and he would bring Zee too. I was very excited for my boy and for him to be around all of his friends like old times.

It finally seemed like our life was coming together.

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"Sick tatt dude! That's obviously a new one." Zayn comments on louis tattoo and Louis raises his shirt arm to show him better. He had a small blush on his face and when he looked at me, I pretended to be paying attention to Niall's lame story about how many tacos he ate.

"What does it mean? I mean it's super cool but does it have a meaning?" I over hear. I carefully nod along with Niall so it looks like I'm paying attention.

I know it's rude to easedrop but Lou wouldn't tell me what it meant. He said he saw it in a magazine and thought it was sick, but 'given a chance' seems a little personal to me.

"Yeah, it means I just want to be given a chance. I want to get my life right and to be able to be the best me, and I know I could if I could just be given a chance. I was talking to my ther- I mean my friend and he said that I need to find the inner louis so that once I am given a chance, I will be able to give it my all."

I had no clue it meant that. I didn't know he needs a chance to be the real him, or the real louis. I didn't know he was not being the 'real louis' whatever that is.

"Wow lou. That's pretty poetic." Zayn laughs and Louis joins in, and suddenly the conversation changes so that we are all toasting drinks and talking about Lous new exciting adventures and his next big step.