Supernatural One shots

Only you

Dean x Reader - Friends with benefits was all you had with Dean . You kept telling yourself that you were fine with it. But try telling that to your heart. So you try to back off and save the heartbreak you knew would come with saying anything to Dean. But will he let you go that easily...

You rolled over on your stomach sliding both arm underneath your pillow. You turned your head and watch the steady up and down of Dean's chest in the dull evening light of the motel room.

His eyes were close and he was breathing deeply . It was rare to see him this relax and you soaked it in. Maybe he would stay tonight maybe you would fall asleep next to him and wake up next to him.

But that little hope was short lived. You watched as he took a deep breath before sitting up and swinging his legs off the side of the bed.

You watched the muscles in his back as he reached down to grab his clothes. You wanted to say something anything . But you didnt .

He pulled his shirt over his head before turning to you " we should head out early tomorrow " he said "Ok I will be ready " you said forcing yourself to remain calm and relaxed

This lasted until he closed the door behind him then you buried your face in your pillow and let the tears go finally

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When this thing between you and Dean started it had been like a dream come true for you at first. You had been harboring feelings for the older hunter for a while . But you never really thought he would look your way .

That was until one night after one too many beers Dean leaned in and kissed you . Kept kissing you until you were underneath him on the bed .

He looked down at you asking you softly with each kiss along your neck if this was ok. You responded with kisses of your own letting him know it was

You treasured every moment the kisses the touches. So when he finally rolled off of you onto his back next to you . You were still riding your high when he sat up and started pulling back on his clothes.

Before you could ask he was turning to you and explaining how this should be kept simple.You wanted to ask why but you didnt .

So when two weeks later he kissed you again you went along with it. Enjoying it while you could.

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At first you though you could handle putting your emotions aside . You were an adult that could handle a no strings attached affair .

You knew after two months that you were quickly losing the battle to your feelings and you had no idea what to do about it.

On one hand you knew you couldnt say anything it would freak Dean out and you lose whatever relationship you had with him.

But on the other hand you couldnt keep falling into bed with Dean. It was getting more and more painful and difficult to act like this wasn't bothering you.

You knew that Dean would never have feelings for you. How could he ? You weren't the prettiest girl out there or even the skinniest .

You were a decent hunter but that was only because your father had figured you wouldnt be good much else . God only knows how many times he told you how worthless you were how no good you were.

After 18 years of hearing the same thing over and over again you couldnt help but believe it. So even to have Dean's attention just for a little while was more than you though to ever ask for .