Lost And Afraid

What did i do to deserve you *5*

Rap Monster's P.O.V

Blood was everywhere on the white bed sheets of the hospital, I knew what it meant but I didn't want to accept it; I was gonna lose my unborn baby. There she was Beth, sat there crying screaming. She was in pain and I couldn't stop it. The doctor flew the surgery doors open and called all the doctors. "Dr.Clarke we need assistance" the girl ran in and grabbed her tools.

"I'm sorry Namjoon but you're going to have to leave!" I was angered by the Doctor's words I couldn't leave the love of my life in agony without me to comfort her, as I have for 3 years. He pushes me away as I forced myself into the theatre but my mind, already made up its decision; to try to get in there, so I could be there for Beth. I pushed him back, he fell to the floor as the force of my violent actions was too much for him. He then screamed "Security!" I still fought back but it was useless as two well-built men came and dragged me away. As I was getting forced out of the door I stopped and looked the men in the eyes and adrenaline was running in my veins, I punched him with all my strength and, surprise surprise, I knocked them out. The after pain hurt so much but it was so worth it.

I calmed myself down and slid down the hospital wall. I wiped away my sweat and tears and placed my face in my hands.

Beth's P.O.V

As the anaesthetic wore off, I weakly opened my eyes and saw 5 blurry figures in the white painted room. "Where am I?" I asked, still confused where I was. London replied "The Hospital", still rubbing my eyes I asked the first that came to my mind " is the baby alright?", everyone looked down to the tiled ground. I knew at this moment that I lost my baby and I am the one to blame for it. I guess they figured out that I knew about the baby, as they said nothing about it, but I still needed clarification so I asked the question again this time agitated "how's the baby?!" I ask, trying to stay strong while keeping my tears back. Namjoon came forward and reached for my hand and held it tightly, he looked into my eyes, his hands bruised but he endured the pain when he clenched my hand. "Beth," he said softly, "You..." he stutters and looks down to my hands which of course it has a needle poked into one of my veins. He continues with the words that just confirmed my thoughts,"We lost the baby" he looked in my eyes, his eyes forming little tears at the edge of his eyes. Similarly, I felt my eyes forming little droplets of water too, I tried my best to stop them rolling down my cheeks but I couldn't. I was so overwhelmed with sadness that I couldn't hold it back, I felt water trickling down my cheek and making its way down to my chin and it finally landed on Namjoon's hand which was on top of mine. I look at Namjoon's eyes and say caressing his cheek, "It's my fault if I didn't do the concert maybe she or he would be still with me, so don't beat yourself up about it." He looked up and he looked shocked for a moment then his face turned into a face I knew too much, it was the face he gives me if I was sad or dissatisfied with myself, it was a kind of smile and frown mixed with his deary eyes, it was the face of love. He replied, "No isn't, no one was to blame". He kissed my forehead and he smiled at me.

I realised what day it was; Eve's birthday, I made a gesture to her signalling to her to come closer, I smile at her faintly as I am still recovering from the tears that fell earlier, "Happy Birthday!" I said weakly as I feel the effects of medication, I didn't want to ruin her day just because I lost my baby. I feel so weak but I reach for her and hug her, I suddenly feel the urge to sleep and I faintly hear her say "Thank You" before I only saw black and heard faint and muffled noises in the far distance.

Eve's P.O.V

As Beth fell asleep we made our way out of the room, leaving Namjoon to have some time alone. It sounds so selfish at this moment, but it was pre-planned for us to go out tonight. I obviously could not give up our reservation, so I got ready to go out.

*****(time skip)

I grasped Jin's hand as we walked up to the nightclub doors. We flashed ID's and quickly scurried in. Jimin and Tessa walked to the bar, already tipsy, and grabbed a few more drinks. The lights dimmed down and slow music began to play.