"Stigma" Kim Taehyung AU

Blood Sweat and Tears

"Please Tae." I slowly said still holding him "Its over now," my voice began to get weak and tears scrolled down my face. How could I let this come so far? "It's okay. Please open your eyes..." I said as I sobbed giving him a tight hug. I noticed he woke up and immediately looked him into his eyes. He was so weak, so fragile. "H-hey," he softly said with his low warm voice "don't cry..." he said as I saw he was almost at his end. He gave me one sweet gaze, but after a minute his eyes were vague. He stared into the not excising atmosphere and I knew I had lost the love of my life. "Tae?" I said shaking him softly "Please, Tae. Don't do this to me... After all we have been through." I cried even harder "You can't leave me. I-I love you." I pressed my lips onto his, still crying in silence. "I'm- I'm so sorry.  This is all my fault."
Suddenly I heard a door opening, but I couldn't care anymore, if I could be with Taehyung again I would do anything. I would even die for him. Footsteps of the woman approached me while I was completely broken. My heart was crushed into a million peaces, all hurting very badly. Why? Why did it have to be Tae? Why did he have to suffer like this? Why wasn't it me? Tae didn't deserve this. I felt so sad and empty and I knew I wouldn't be the same happy girl as before, so... why shouldn't I end it? I looked to Tae while the woman was almost one meter with me "Please," I said with a shaking voice "Just do it. Kill me, isn't that what you wanted after all?" I was waiting but nothing happened so I looked her way still having watery eyes. She stood there, very quiet and didn't move a muscle. She was holding a sharp knife looking at me with a wild look. "Please, I beg you." I said as I let out a deep sigh. "No!" She screamed "YOU DESTROYED EVERYTHING!" She said as it echoed in the cold room "YOU DESTROYED THE MOST IMPORTANT LABORATORY ON THE PLANET!!!" Her face became red "Do you know how much this cost me? Do you have any idea of how I protected this building for everyone, and YOU." She pointed at me" YOU JUST WALK IN AND DESTROY IT!!!" I didn't pay much attention to what she had to say, the only thing I wanted was the knife. The knife that could be my best friend at this right moment. "Give me that knife, please." I quietly said not looking her into the eyes. "No. You don't deserve an escape." She approached me and wanted to grab me by my wrists to lock me up, but I was quicker. I held her wrists tightly while I was very close to her face. "Just give it." I said as she dropped the knife "and run away. Before I do something that might kill you." I wanted her to have another change and I didn't want to transform into a monster again, although I already felt like it. She stared into my eyes with so much fear and I let go of her. She ran away without looking back as I heard her footsteps going further away. I kneeled down next to Tae as I began to cry again. He lied there, so lifeless, so sad. "Tae, you probably don't hear me, but as I said I love you. I loved you with all my heart." My voice cracked "Since the day I met y-you. Please forgive me..." I gave him one last kiss and walked towards the knife that was still lying in the cold floor. I picked it up and it shined in the weak light of the lamp. I felt so... Well, I didn't even know what I felt. A tear scrolled down my check thinking of Taehyung, but soon I would be with him. I set the knife onto my first wrist and slit it. Red blood flowed onto the floor and I was in really bad pain. I screamed it out. Now it was the others turn. Again I set off, but now even harder. I cried really hard and I went to sit on the floor waiting for my time to come. But... after a few minutes the wounds and pain disappeared. Sh*t, I forget wounds of creatures like us heal in a few minutes.
I thought back of Tae and me running through the quiet could streets. My parents were after me and he was shot in his arm. I was so worried but after a moment the wound was gone. I thought back of what he said "Another ability of us: we can't die." He said with a grin "Well, we can, but only if someone takes our wings."
That last sentence repeated over and over in my head. I wish I was the one that was now lying on the floor without wings. I wish I was the one who could have protected him. I still sat there with my hands covered in blood and tears scrolling down my face. I couldn't hold it any longer. Let's see if someone here is still alive, to help me.