fix you (Niall Horan)

21~ Memories

// n i a l l \\

I felt like I was dying. I was frantic, my mind was in fifty places at once. There was that small sliver of hope that they could revive her. So small, I'm afraid if I touched it, it would disintegrate. The one chance I had to save my princess was in the hands of God, and I was praying so hard that he would spare her, and take me instead.

"FUCK!" I screamed and rammed my fist through the wall. Pain shot up my arm and my hand throbbed. 

"Niall stop!" Morgan quickly pulled me away from the wall, holding my hand out in front of me. I had broken the skin and started to bleed badly. I used my good hand to wipe my tears away, both from Skylar and my hand. I was just so angry with myself. I deserved this and much more for not believing her.

The tears have stopped coming by now, I think everybody here had cried a good 20 minutes. We were leaving for the hospital soon, and since I punched the wall out of frustration, blood decorated my clothes. I had to change. I walked into my room, falling on the bed that I shared with Skylar. I could feel the tears coming on again when something dinged.

It was Skylars phone. She had lots of unread text messages, mainly from Emily. I looked at her home screen, and let out a sob.

It was a picture of us boys and the girls. We were sitting in the dressing room for the You and I music video, and you could see in the background Louis and Zayn fighting over who looked better. Liam had his arm around Morgan, smiling wide. Raya was being cradled by Harry, who had his mouth open wide. Then there was me, planting a soft kiss on Skylars cheek, while and shut her beautiful eyes closed and smiled. I would give my life millions of times, just to see her blue eyes and her gorgeous smile again. I was hoping for a miracle, just waiting for it to save my princess.

I scrolled through her pictures and videos, seeing the one video she took while we were waiting in the dressing room before a show. I took a deep breath and pressed play.

"Are you nervous?" she asked, hanging upside down in the couch in my dressing room. I just shrugged and she giggled, shaking the phone with her.

"BOO!" Harry screamed and Skylar yelped, falling on her head. "Ow."

"Sorry Sky!" Harry called.

"Yeah right," she mumbled and fixed her shorts, shaking the camera.

I laughed at her, and took her hand, helping her up. She brushed off her pants and went over to my mirror, fixing her hair. She did the Macarena with one hand as Lou finished doing my hair. Once I was done, Skylar and I did the Wizard of Oz skip down the hall, making Louis and Liam bend over in laughter.

"Good luck," she smiled and flipped the camera on us, giving me a peck on the cheek. I ran out on stage and greeted the fans.

"I actually love him, and he loves me, but were just to dysfunctional to admit it." she laughed and the video stopped.

I let the tears fall freely now, nothing could stop them. Someone was standing in the doorway, but I ignored them, letting me revel in my memories.

"Niall." They said sternly. I looked up to see Raya, her eyes and cheeks just as red as mine. She walked slowly over to the bed and sat down beside. I sniffed quickly and sat up, swinging  my legs over the bed to match her.

"We are leaving now, I was told to come and get you." She whispered, touching my leg with her hand. I grabbed her hand and gave it a squeeze. 

We walked out the door in silence, embracing our significant others and each other. I said another prayer to myself, because I was not about to leave that hospital without Sky. I needed her.