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Twenty Three

Sadie

She was beautiful. All the boys in the obscurity of my peripheral faded away along with the deeply colored leaves and setting sky. She was all i wanted to see and i stood frozen, taking in the sight of her. She looked upset, no..ashamed. Ashamed that she had hurt me, ashamed that she had left.

i flinched as i could feel myself slowly become angry, boiling with sickly hot hatred. Wiping away a tear that began to slide down my pale cheek, i swallowed hard and began to walk towards her. i slapped her. Hard. Her head jolted the other way and i could see her eyes began to brim with tears, but she took the hit. She deserved it. The boys behind us gasped and i was reminded of their presence.

Millie turned her head to look back at me and i could see she was really crying now. i realized i was too. "I'm sorry." Her voice broke and i pulled her into my arms, wrapping my arms around her and sobbing into her shoulder. She didn't deserve that. But at the moment, i didn't care.

i pulled away to look at her and let out a sob, shaking my head. "God, i hate you." i mustered out and she nodded through her tears. "i know." "But, God, i missed you." we both laughed through the tears and i saw her look past me at the boys. Finn, his eyes flooded with tears and a look of longing, stepped forward.

Finn

It was her. It was really Millie. She smiled at me, wiping tears away. "Hi, Finnie." She choked, and i pulled her into a secure hug. Millie had always been there. She was the little sister i never had and to say that i missed her was an understatement.

Sadie retreated slightly and she smiled at us. "Oh, Finn. You are such an idiot." Millie sniffled, playfully punching my arm. "i know. But, you are almost a bigger idiot, mills." We laughed and my heart clenched. i had missed her. i had missed this. Slowly, Wyatt, Gaten, and Caleb came forward and embraced Millie into a group bear hug of tears and smiles. She looked around at us, beaming. "i love you all so much."

We all only laughed and smiled harder, before Millie stopped and seemed to have noticed something was missing. "Where's Noah?" My heart still skipped a beat at his name.

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Noah

this homework was stupid. i gave up on it again for a third time and laid on my bed, turning over onto my side and studying the emptiness of them. They were emptier than me. i didn't like it. i wanted some type of clutter. Finn used to be my clutter.

i shook my head, getting up off the bed and mumbling to myself as i walked to my mirror. Grandma would be home soon. She'd make me try to eat, take my meds, and she'd wanna give me a haircut i thought as i furrowed my brows at my reflection. My hair had gotten longer without me noticing, the strands extending slightly past my ears. i studied the rest of my appearance, noticing the obvious flaws. My eyes sunk into my face and looked hallow behind purple bags, i frowned at this.

i looked like i was dying. Maybe i was. i jumped as i heard a knock at the door. It was followed by a knock slightly out of beat and this caught my attention. i could feel my insides flip and freeze inside, like drinking water on an empty stomach. please don't knock a third and fourth time in unison, i thought. i was met with both a third knock and fourth knock, perfectly in unison. Someone must be playing a prank on me.

How they would know his special knock puzzled me and i went dead white at the thought that it was really him. No. Stop it, Noah. It's not him. Don't look. i didn't listen to myself, as always. Before i knew it, i was lightly trailing down the stairs to the door. i opened it slowly, holding my breath. Please. Please don't be him. Please be him. Please be him. Please don't be him. Which one do you want, Noah?

i peeked out and my eyes met dark, soft ones, soft ones that went wide at the sight of mine. With my head barely out the door, i broke down in tears and slammed it. "Wai-" No. No. Not good. i couldn't catch my breath, and i leaned my back against the door, closing my eyes and trying my best to breathe.

"Noah, i think I'm going crazy." Finn said, sadly. i watched as he fiddled with the ends of his light blue sweater. The rain was beating steadily outside and i almost choked on the air as i hesitantly replied, "Me too." He looked up hopefully, his dark eyes gleaming. i watched as he moved closer and smiled, "Hey, well, if we're both going crazy, then we'll go crazy together, right?" i nodded, smiling back. i watched as he blushed and felt it as my heart warmed at his grin. "Yeah, crazy together."

i didn't know if i still loved him. But i was sure of one thing, he sure as hell didn't love me anymore.

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Big oof

Sorry it took me so long to update lol, my weeks been busy with midterms coming up. Hope you guys liked this chapter tho, peep that ST season 2 reference tho rip to my hearT.