Butterflies || [Harry Styles fanfiction]

Sixteen

((I put a song on the side bar and I was listening to it while I was writing the last part idk, I really like it. Plus you can find a pic of 'Ciara' there too, ok. I hope you like the chapter. xx))

I wake up at the sound of an alarm clock. What a beautiful way to start the day. I open my eyes to see how Helena throws the alarm clock to the floor. I let out a soft laugh and she looks at me with a frown. I close my eyes again, but then I remember today is Harry's party, and I have to be there. I want to be there. Is not like I need to be there. I'll probably feel uncomfortable, with Maya around, but Niall will be there, and everything will be great.

I need to pick an outfit.

And I don't even know at what time the party starts, or what type of clothes I should wear, or how do I get there.

''Ciara?'' I hear Helena's voice and I look up to find her looking at me with a sad expression. I nod and she looks down. ''Look, I know it's your life... but yesterday I woke up because of a loud noise, and I saw you and...Harry, you know? And I have nothing against you, but I've heard things about him, plus he has girlfriend and... ''My lips part but I can't say a thing. She doesn't get it. Well I don't either. '' I don't want people to be rude at you, you don't deserve it. But some girls are mean, and they can come up with names and nicks. I just want you to be careful. Okay?'' She asks with a small smile and I nod slowly. She doesn't want me to start being a slut. Got it.

I need to get out of here. She's somehow hurting me. I mean, she speaks the truth. What she thinks it's true. Not what I think it's true. I need to get out.

I stand up, and change into my running clothes. Then I grab my phone and leave the room, while Helena calls me. I need to get out.

I put the headphones, and leave the house. The road is empty, and I thank God. I start running, and try to forget about everything.

I hate the way I am. I really care about what people think about me, I have crushes on people I shouldn't have. I'm mentally blind. I'm really gullible. But I can't change. After last year, I thought I'd grow up stronger, but I didn't. I'm that stupid girl from Pennsylvania, and I will always be that girl. The one that keeps thinking that there's this perfect boy waiting for her. Someone that will love her and treat her how she deserves. But how do I deserve to be treated? I thought my college experience was going to be something else. Something better. I mean, it's not all bad. Harry was a good thing. Well, not exactly. He's the bad of this. He's my biggest problem, yet he's the one that makes everything better.

Suddenly I bump into someone. My eyes meet those electric green eyes that make me go crazy.

''Hey, '' Harry says breathless and jerk away. He was grabbing me by the shoulders. I don't mean to be rude, it's just that I need air. He looks at me confused and I pull out my best smile, trying to fool him. He seems to buy it. ''You were so... in your world.'' He points to my headphones and I sigh.

''Yes, I guess I needed it.'' I confirm and he nods. ''You know, I really have to go.'' I say turning on my heels, but he stops me.

''Are you okay? I mean, you're not acting weird because of the kiss last night right? It was a stupid thing, I was half drunk, you were tired, that was it.'' He says laughing and I smile.

''Yeah, funny huh. We always kiss when one of us is drunk. Lame.'' I scoff and he keeps laughing.

''Are you mad or something?'' He asks and when I about to reply he cuts me off. ''Nevermind, we'll talk tonight. Remember 8PM. Put a formal dress, and I'll text you the adress. It's not that far from college. ''