Nonsensical Thoughts Become Things

(59) A Love Cycle Story Of Ms. Heart

A Love Cycle Of Ms. Heart

It was just like few seconds before everything get crashed

I remember we're just in our favorite food stall

We are just having a contest in eating chili fries and I won

We just walk around and talk to the human-sized teddy bear at the mall

But after that day of merry go out with you

I received an English message from you

Just by reading the first word, I already feel this heaviness in my heart

While continue reading the next lines, it really makes my heart hurts

As if it was a sword that stabbed from my back

And I start crying uncontrollably

And for the second time around,

My new healed heart return from breaking into pieces like a glass

I ask myself for the nth time,

"Why is it easy for him to bury all our trails in oblivion?"

"Why did he waste it all?"

I didn't know if he mean all the efforts he showed to me before.

But this is what I only know,

I think this is my fault because I gave him another chance,

Another chance to hurt me again

And to experience again all those pain that I thought was already casted away

But what I pray is, this must be the last

I hope that this will not become a cycle to be so called A Love Cycle Story of Ms. Heart.

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December 5, 2017
10:38 pm