You and I ( A delena story) (under editing)

I walk alone

Stefan's POV
It's been three months since I turned my humanity back on. Usually it only takes a couple of days for the pain of all of my emotions re surfacing to go away. but this time I'm not so lucky.
It's been three months of complete hell. when I first turned it on damon said he wanted nothing to do with me. Considering that I kissed elena I didn't blame him. He threatened to kick me out But, elena talked with him and convinced him that I needed some time to get back on my feet.
Caroline was there for me until she rememberd that I killed all those people in Chicago and even killed elena. She tried reminding herself that I had my humanity off but every time she looks at me I can tell that she is disgusted by me. Her excuse these days is that she is working on her relationship with klaus. it's not a very good excuse though because klaus has done a whole lot of bad things too but she can look past that with him but Not with me it must be his accent.
The thing that makes the pain worse is seeing elena with damon. From my room I can hear everything. Like the night elena took the pregnancy test and she found out it was positve. I could hear Damon's nervous fingers tapping on the bathroom counter as they waited the minutes it took to find out if elena was pregnant. Another time I was getting a bag of blood from the cellar and I heard elena getting her first morning sickness, Damon held back her hair and sang to her. I stay awake some nights listening to damon talk to elena for hours about names for the baby and plans for the wedding.
Even though I told the traveler women that I didn't have feelings for elena anymore I can't shake the fact that a single kiss from her was able to turn my humanity back on. it has to mean something. but, she is with damon now and there is nothing I can do about it. she's carrying his baby.
As I am downing the last sips of alcohol elena walks in. A tiny bump is just begging To stick out.
"Jesus Stefan your not much different than you were with your humanity off you need to stop drinking and do something with your life," she says.
As she sets down the groceries
I am about to tell her the way I've felt since she kissed me not being able to stand the fact that she thinks I am an awful even with emotions. when damon walks in.
"Honey I'm home," he calls out. elena throws her arms around him and smiles.
"Did you get it," she asks
"Sure did," he pulls out a jar of peanut butter.
Elena grabs it out of his hands and unscrews the lid. she scoops out a huge lob and licks her finger.
"Wow the cravings are getting intense
My love, pretty soon we are going to have to buy the whole grocery store, "
He sticks his pinky finger in the peanut butter and wipes it on Elena's nose.
"I wouldn't mind that, actually," she grins kisses Damon's cheek. and grabs a napkin off the counter and cleans off her nose. The way the are around each other it looks so natural they don't even have to try to be happy.
"Not to interrupt or anything but we are running low on blood and I was wondering if damon and I could make a run to the hospital,"
"What about me," elena questions while grabbing another glob of peanut butter.
"I wouldn't want to in danger your child, plus you would probably slow us down," I say
"Are you calling my fiancé fat," damon is on edge.
" I didn't mean it like that," I look at elena apologetically ," it's just I don't think it would be a good idea."
Elena looks at damon and then down at her baby bump.
"I don't want you to leave me and her," elena slides her hand into Damon's.
"Her," I ask "you guys already found out the gender of the baby,"
"No but she feels like a girl, I picture her with Damon's eyes and hair with my nose,"
"Look Stefan I don't think I should go on a blood run right now if you want I can call Tyler or Matt to go with you," damon offers.
"Nah I'm good, any special requests for a certain blood type elena," i wonder if cravings apply to blood types too. well I guess this is the first ever vampire baby so it might just be trial and error.
"A positve, would be great," she sits down and puts her feet up on the nearest chair.
"That will be our kid's grades," damon jokes and sits down next to her.
"You sure you don't want me to call someone to go with you Stefan," he asks again.
"No I'm fine," i tell him .I really just need some time to myself to think things over. Turning off my humanity this time changed me. I feel most comfortable when I walk alone.

Elena's journal entry
Dear diary,
It's been a while. today when I was finally unpacking from our Paris trip I stumbled across you hidden beneath one of Damon's hundred pairs of jeans. A lot has happened since I last wrote back in Paris. I'll give you the short version.
For starters I'm engaged and three months pregnant. I found the Prince Charming I have been dreaming about but instead of riding in on a horse he rides a black Harvey. Caroline has been planning our wedding but has delayed the nuptials until after my baby is born. Her argument is that my baby bump would not look flattering in my wedding dress. I agree with her I want to learn how to be a parent before having to plan a wedding.
Damon has been my rock. he has held my hand through all of the pregnancy loops. When I cried for two hours after the season finale of once upon a time he bought me ice cream and hugged me until I calmed down even though the show wasn't even that sad.
Today I convinced damon to turn in his convertible for a more kid friendly car. he went straight for the sports cars even though we were there to get a family car. I finally dragged him over to look at the mini vans. He tried to hid it but he loved that he could open the doors automatically without even touching them. I knew that it was a done deal when i was sitting in the passenger seat of the car and he was sitting in the drivers, I showed him how to recline the seat and soon enough we were lying back looking at each other. "This is so comfortable," he said. I can just image our little kid sitting in the back on a road to some place damon and I are talking about the night we first met while he or she is listening to the wiggles cd. "so we are going to get this aren't we," I smiled damon smirked. " I am going to be known as the soccer mom from now on if we do," damon commented "i like it," I said. and that's how we became the proud owners of a honda odyssey.
I love being pregnant but I am worried. I am caring the first vampire fetus. I have read the twilight novels enough times to get myself worked up I don't want to be eaten alive by my baby. but, it doesn't seem like any of that bad stuff is happening so I am just going to go with the flow and hope for the best.
. Klaus and I are on better terms. After he and Caroline started going out he fully apologized and he and I discussed protection for the baby I explained that the travelers wanted the baby's blood and klaus being an expert in the subject of taking blood for supernatural purposes helped me build a safe house. Damon objected but once i told how much our safety ment we made plans for the delivery and after.
I can't believe how much my life has changed. And for the better. I haven't needed to write in you for a while and hopefully I won't need to in the coming future .
Love,
Elena Gilbert,
P.S. soon to be elena Salvatore.
( Sorry sucky short chapter, but I have a more ideas for next week, I put some delena baby moments in it. comment and vote,)