Loving You is Hard, Especially When I Hate You.

Closure, Parties, and Big Fights

CHAPTER 27

So far the party was great. I danced with Suzan for a bit before we sat down again and just talked. It was nice to just forget about everything for an evening. It was a way to just have a little fun, not think about the things that were bugging me. Suzan and Darren kept me company for most of the evening while Liam seemed to have disappeared. I hadn't seen him since he went to get us some drinks. I didn't mind much, I think we both needed a bit of space to sort things out.

Suzan's friend, I think Catherine, came over and pulled Suzan to the dance floor to jam to a song. I laughed as they both started pulling crazy dance moves. I turned to Darren to see him looking at her with a smile planted on his lips. He chuckled as Catherine spun Suz round and dipped. It was so obvious he loved her. And I was happy for both of them. It was great to see how happy they made each other. Suzan deserved love that Darren seemed to give her. Everything they had done just proved they loved each other more than anything. The way they looked at each other, the small gestures of affection, the little inside jokes they seemed to have that always came out with what ever they were talking about. It was so sickening sweet to watch. Everything about their relationship made me smile, and i'm sure that everyone else in the room loved them together just as much as I did.

“so you and Suz.. getting pretty serious yeah?” I said nudging Darren out of his dream land. He looked over smiling before looking down and chuckling.

“uh... yeah, you know Rena, I think she could be the one, she is just so... I don't even know where to start it's so crazy how I was hung up on you for so long and now... that's all changed, I want to be your friend I really do Rena and i'll always love you just not in that way anymore.” I smiled nodding. I completely understood. I wanted to stay friends with him. It was always so great to be just friends with him. Everything was less complicated when we were just best friends. And I loved him also, just not in love with him. Not like Liam. He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb over the top of it comfortingly. I smiled at him before nodding.

“i agree.” he smiled back and his gaze slowly lowered down to my neck. Where the same old silver chain was. He picked it up between his finger and thumb flipping it over looking at it intently.

“i can't believe you kept this.” he mumbled as if to himself. I shrugged picking it up and looking at it in my hand. The old heart necklace seemed to have so many memories inlaid in it. Just looking at it brought back the good and bad memories we shared. It was like a little time capsule I could keep forever.

“you gave it to me, and I promised to keep it forever.” he looked at me raising an eyebrow.

“Rena, you shouldn't wear it anymore.” I frowned at him looking down at the necklace and back up at him. I didn't want to stop wearing it. It meant to much to me. To be just tossed away. He had saved up to get me it. To remind me of how much I meant to him. To remember all the great, and some bad, moments we had together. But I see where he was going. It was also when he told me he loved me. When he confessed how much more I meant to him. More than just a friend. And Zayn had already told me that me wearing the necklace pretty much said I still loved him. But I do, just more as a brother now. I slowly unclasped the necklace pulling it away from my neck and handing it to Darren. He frowned and shook his head handing it back to me.

“no, keep it. Just to remember me.”

“but why would I want something to remember you by? You are dying are you?” I joked nudging him. He laughed shaking his head.